IT SEEMS TO ME THAT LIFES ONE BIG MESS AND THAT PEOPLE ARE ONLY PUT HERE TO FUCK UP THERE LIVES IT'S CLEAR TO ME AS TO WHAT I NEED TO DO...THIS IS THE LAST TIME I THINK I'LL BE AROUND AND I WANTED TO PUT MYSELF AT PEACE WITH THIS CHOICE
I'M SO SORRY AS TO HOW MANY PEOPLE I HURT OR MADE FEEL LIKE CRAP...TO ME IT'S EASYER TO PUSH PEOPLE AWAY AND RISK GETTING HURT THEN TO OPEN UP ALL THE WAY AND RISK BEING HAPPY....I GUESS YOU CAN SAY I'M NOT MUCH OF A RISK TAKER I'D RAITHER FEEL SAFE IN MY BUBBLE THEN TO HAVE MY HEART RIPPED OUT AND SHOWN TO PEOPLE AND STEPPED ON I GUESS WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY IS I'M SORRY I COULDEN'T BE OPEN TO WHAT EVERYONE TRYED TO SHOW ME KINDNESS THIS WILL BE MY LAST TIME SAYING THIS SO READ CAREFULLY
