skera's blog: "life"

im am so sick of not haveing money. worrying weither our bills are gonna be paid on time or if this check or this check goes thorough with out haveing to pay overdraft fees. and i cant get a job because my grandmother in law cant watch my daughter 24 hours aday, and im not goning to quite school ill be in even more dept then we are now. i just cant win for fucking loseing. im so stressed im staying sick to my stomach when is my life gonna get easier when do i get my break im starting to think that the gods have just shit on me and forgotten im here its really getting to me, if it wasnt for jasons grandmother we wouldnt be eating or even have a car or place to live. shes the only reason weve made it with out hitting rock bottom, and now thats caught up with us and were still going there. the rain keeping him our of work and the days he dose work gets sent home early and doesnt get any hours we cant live on 600 sometine 800 dollars a month and then also us have a life and fun we dont even get to go any where or do any thing any more. all we do is sit at home and he tells me how boring i am becaise we dont have the money to fucking do anything so its my falt. i just wish i could get a break my time to be happy and not so stressed FUCK it i have worked so hard for a fucking break but like every one here tells me thats life you stress out while every one else gets to be happy and do what the hell they fucking want to.

man the one thing that i wish i could do this week is have the money to go to headliners in louisville ky friday for a type o negitvie and lordi concert its only 20 a person to it sucks being broke if it would just stop fucking raining my husband could work and we could have went but no well bearly be able to pay the bills as it is oh well thats life for you it sucks

its so weird not being called by a name that i hve has since i meet some one it hurts almost like they still havent really forgiven me i just want to cry thinking about it matter of fact i am i dont like it and want things to go back pple make mistakes i just wish there was some thing i could do any thing to fix it any thing!!!!!!!!!!

you know famuily means the world to me and me and sego havent had a family for the last year or so , and now my daughter is 16 months old and were trying like hard to get our family back me and sego are so happy but were not a family with out our friends who mean the world to us, and were now talking to the pple friends that we clam as family and have even when we werent talking to them because of the miss comunication and shit that other pple started and the tempers and att that the others wouldnt give in though they had been friends for years, but anyways we finnally got them as friends again and things are starting to get more relaxing and happy i know it will take time for things to be close to normal and i hope that they accpet us back and call us family again that will mean the most to me and sego when they do and accept us back, i know were friends but i dont just want friends i want family they were the only ones who stuck by us and most the others have betrayed us so badly, i just want some one to rely on and some one to be here with us. we love them and i just want them to know that and they know who they are love skera and sego

i cant beleive its already 2007 and my daughters is almost 8 months old and ive almost been married 6 months things are flying by so quick now, ill be 20 in march damn damn damn im still drunk lol i drank two much last night