The Tin Man's blog: "life,,,,"

My life is very complicated. I am depresed. I work at a dead end job. my son lives with me and my roommate has his son. I still pay child support cause this state will not help a man that is finacially broke. I wish things could be better but I am not seeing it anytime soon. I want a place of my own but I can't find one that i can afford on my own. I have feelings of hopelessnes often. there are times that i don't even want to wake up and get out of bed. like the past 5 months. I have property to put a house but the only lead on a house is not a guaranttee that it will happen. I have also determined that i am going to be single tile I expire. expiration will be my only way to be happy. i am friends with a woman that i have fallen for and she knows it; however, she is always with other guys. she says they are just friends but i don't buy that one. one of these days maybe she will figure it out. and as for my son he has an anger management problem. he is not getting along with the other child that lives in this house. my roommate is closing on a house in about 3 wks and he wants me to go with him, but i can't stand to continue to live like this. children constantly fighting and being rude and disrespectful to each other and to the adults in the house. does it get any better and if so when?