well another christmas is done and it seems to be harder on me. i had to hold in all my pain and cry when no body was looking. for those who dont know christmas was my dads b-day. he passed away july 4th 2003. so as u can see its tough on my family and it seems to get harder for me. its been 4 years but the 4th christmas he would have been 75. my dad was ma best friend and i wish i could have gone in his place. but hey yall dont wanna hear all that. just lettin you know what im feeling.