Mother Wench's blog: "Life"

I am a mastermind of conflict. Everything I feel is a theory in conflict, a study of chaos, and a waterfall of indecision. Most of my friends would probably say that is my biggest weakness, my worst trait, my character flaw. That I can never make up my mind and "I'm not happy unless I'm bitching about something". Which is probably true. One of my problems is that the more life gets stable, the more instable I have to make it. I am truly not happy being balanced, comfortable in all my personal and professional, and parental lives. As soon as I get one thing straightened out, I go messing something else up. L.S. I love you girl, to death, but I refuse to lie for you or to you. C.O. You are my best friend and always will be even if we never talk again, may I wish you all the best. I hate that I cant talk to you other than where we do talk, but we all know how I don't like confrontation. Maybe that's why I am rebelling against all the help I am trying to get. It is easier to not make up my mind about what I want than it is to deal with it. I'm working on it though and I want you to know that. Love to my friends and fam who stuck me through this and know what I am talking about. I promise to make up my mind soon.

Good God Almighty, lets get drunk and be somebody!! I LOVE THE WEEKENDS!!!!!!!!! LOVE them, absolutely love them. It doesn't matter what I am doing usually, whether or not I am doing homework, going out to party, hanging out with my ADORABLE son, I LOVE the weekend. Something about it is so indulgent, even something as simple as a big hot breakfast instead of fruit or something equally portable and not needing to be prepared. And I Love if I get to do something like going to the beach, cider mill, skiing, whatever. One of my favorites when the weather is yucky is to eat snacks all day on the couch with movies. Or if the weather is nice finding something to do with it. What do you like to do on your weekends???

Is there love without loss? Are you in love right now? Or have you lost? I feel both. What a shame... And they say better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all? What a crock. Maybe this will help describe more of what I mean.. Major Props to anyone who gets it. Dejeuner du matin il a mis le cafe dans la tasse il a mis le lait dans la tasse de cafe il a mis le sucre dans le cafe au lait avec la petite cuiller il a tourne il a bu le cafe au lait et il a repose la tasse sans me parler il a allume une cigarette il a fait des ronds avec la fumee il a mis les cendres dans le cendrier sans me parler sans me regarder il s'est leve il a mis son chapeau sur sa tete il a mis son manteau de pluie parce qu'il pleuvait et il est parti sous la pluie sans une parole sans me regarder et moi j'ai pris ma tete sure mes mains et j'ai pleure. Pretty much describes how I feel.

I like to have fun. No, I love to have fun. But I like to work hard, and the reward for that is playing hard. How does one classify fun? Are there more than a few ways we have fun? Lets start with the obvious...... hanging out, going to the bar, meeting people, sporting events and concerts. But what else do you consider fun? Family fun? I do. Small things, like when my three year old tells me the colors the leaves are changing into, a cup of hot chocolate with a good book and a warm blanket, visiting, and opening presents. What makes you smile? A hot girl peeking at you across the bar? A butterfly landing on your shoulder? Has anyone forgotten the little things?

Can't stand all the election crap. Pointing fingers, tripping over selves in speeches, videos, and blame everywhere. No matter what any candidate says about Bush, what people need to understand is that Bush alone didn't get us to where we are now. He had help, his advisors, Cabinet, and gee a whole bunch of people named CONGRESS. Guess what? Both candidates are a part of that. No matter which way they have voted, they have taken part in how we are today. And we have no one to blame except ourselves. We as a general public voted for not only George Bush TWICE but the House Reps and Senators. No one ever remembers this when things go wrong, but are happy to say they voted for their leaders when the economy is up. I hope the pandemonium surrounding an election year sickens you as well as me.