Beaverhunter's blog: "Life"

Why do you lie... I have done nothing wrong all I want is the truth and you tell me one thing and shit goes the other way. I am done of the lies... Tried of trying to hold your hand and you wanted nothing to do with it am I that bad I guess I am. Why go on.... I have nothing to give I gave it my all just to find out I am fuckface. Now i know how much you loved me or didnt. Love you will be gone soon.

What a night I felt so happy and I was at work (Like those two go together ) But i got some of the best text messages you could ever have from the most beutifull woman in the world. Made my night even though I could not hear her voice or see her. I could in my mind.. And that meantthe world to me. I can not wait to see her or talk to her again. Even if it is for a minute it would last a life time. I know it will be awhile before this happens but you can pray and dream right? Even if it only for a minute it would last a lifetime....

I was thinking today after I got off the phone with the most beutifull woman I have ever met or seen in my life. Man I am a round mouth had this person in my life for years.. Glad she is still a part of my life but in a diffrent way now. And I truelly love this person with all of my heart then some. True love only comes once in a lifetime and my dumb brown ass pissed it away someone should kick my ass because I have been kickin it for years. I wish I could go back in time and change things just maybe one day or a phone call I should of made who knows. I pray that someday I get the chance again and this time I know where I fucked up and I will make sure that shit does not happen again. But if I dont at least I know I will always have her in my life in someway. And for that I am happy and thankfull. I hope she knows how much I love her.

All day I have been thinkin to my self. Look you do this and that this and that and you get nowhere you are over alot of things but why does she call and say that shit why? Because I am a sucker made me feel bad for a sec but then I rembered the weekend I had I dont need that shit it is all a bunch of shit it is like she wants the attachment but that is all that makes her happy knowin i am missable little does she know i am not i am on cloud nine right now still on a emotiional high from the weekend. I know none of this makes sense but to me it does. Rants and rants all do

Why is it when you have the chance to say something you dont. like it would of made a diffrence. When you love someone and tell them hold their hand and just be with them just for a couple hours why didnt you tell them how much you want them. Did they know or where you just dreamin..

I had the best night i have had in a long time. Saw half assed concert but the company i was with was the best. Had a hard time trying to say shit but didnt everything come out great. I really needed last night I can say I feel better about my self now. The only thing that sucked about the night was it had to end that was the hardest part i was thinking about takin a wrong turn or something just to make it last a second longer. I really miss the feelings that i had last night so hard to let go of feelings that you get when you see someone that you have not seen for years but the sec you are with them it seems like it was yesterday.:-) I just hope they feel the same way. I will never forget tonight as long as i live and hope i get the chance to do it again.

What a day if it could go wrong it did went from one bad thing to another do I just have no luck? Can I just get a break and have a good day with out something going to shit? My respone... NO you are fucked. Why because I was a good guy who did what i had too just to get screwed over in the long run. Oh well live with it i cant change it.

you only go around once in life why burn a brige you cant cross later. why my only question

Need help why cant people be honest. I have been going through some shit and I think it might work out then you get that call and the other person tells you what you dont want to hear. Hey i was faithfull took care of my family didnt cheat she did and still wont tell me the truth. Thought we worked things out just to find out she is still at it? what id i do wrong?