Miss Sexy Sabrini's blog: "Life"

since when is it right to stop ppl from living their life by controlling them and not letting them b happy... since when is it right not to let a person b his or her own person...when is it right for ppl to b abusive mentally and phyisically towards another person... what would u do if u just could never get away.. never b happy... never feel loved the way u deserve.. what if ppl always took advantage of the fact that ur helpful and kind... what if ppl only used u and never treated u like a person... since when is it right to not let a person go.. making a person stay locked up alone all the time? 

Ive just been thinking alot lately.. and i been learning what ppl r like... life is so hard to live at times.. and alot of times u just wanna b loved but others u just wish u can b accepted as one of the others... and not always b a persons second choice.. the one they never would have chose if they had a decision... wish i can b someones number one and b loved the way i need ...instead of me always loving everyone else... i care and i care for everyone... and its like most ppl dont even see it... wish they really saw the good person i am... the good i have done and will do in the future.. wish they can see how lonely i get all alone.. how much i wish things can b different .. how i wish life didnt always revolve round money....mayb things would b different if ppl can see past the shell at whats inside... mayb if ppl cared a little more... we wouldnt have the types of problems we have today... mayb sometimes ppl should take a step back and think bout how others feel instead of just themselves and what they can get..how the good always get hurt and never find that one place where something is good or nice.. how ppl wait a lifetime just to have the happiness they always dreamed of....

ok so now i know i cant trust my family for shit... i no i need to leave them behind and never come back... ppl start shit and run the fuck away ..... and then theres those who claim to love u and promise to never leave u and they leave u they r fuckin assholes... ladies dont believe them bc they r playin u.... and those kind of ppl who u no that only care bout themselves and will hurt even their family u need te leave alone bc they will only hurt u.... 

How can it be that you can love so much but also be hurt so bad? How can one person completely disregard another person as if they were nothing? How can a totally different person care for those they dont even know  and put those people above themselves? For these answers you look inside yourself. Ive looked inside me and i have found that i love wholeheartedly, i hold hope for myself and others. Yet i also found i tend to get hurt easier and worse then those around me. I am willing to go out of my  way to help those in need and forget myself completely. I rather see those other people get the help they need then myself. Sometimes i feel people take that love, nurture, care, and hope for granted. They never stop and look at what they are doing, or who they are hurting. They never realize the love they were given til they lose it for good. I have also seen inside myself that i tend to forgive for things people should not be forgiven for. I leave myself to wonder what if i would have said no i wont forgive and forget. How does a person know they cant forgive anymore? Well the things i have forgiven for i should have said this is a sign that im not meant here i should move on. I am the type of person who hates to let go, who wants that happy time to last and last , to go back into something i shouldnt be in that will hurt me to love again. But i cant help but wonder, where would i be now if i had let go, moved on, found a new inspiration, a new meaning to be happy? What if your the type who doesnt like to be alone like i am? what would you do then, how would you cope with the fall out? Even though i may get hurt more i still find i rather give then get, i rather love then be loved. I always put the feelings of those ahead of my own, alot of times i base my actions on how others feel. i hate to hurt another person.  i hate to see another person suffer, id give my coat of my back if it meant helpin at least one other person. So where is it right to disregard another human being?

ok so i no a guy i really really like and he nos who he is. well he has a friend that is always like hatin on my bc i like him... like litterally comin 2 me and bitchin me out. well apperantly its wrong to ask for return luv when u luv so many ppl a day... like i literally rate a ton of pics a day and hardly get any return luv.. like whats with that? and well she watches my status so she starts trouble according to that .. ive noticed it.. and then theres the leaving comments... if im nice enough to leave a comment on ur page ... dont bitch bout it bc i wont rate u at all... just bc sum of ur friends dont like me doesnt mean u have 2 take that out on me.... u no its hard to shut off the emotions somebody has when they like u and wanna do anything for u ... but when ppl sit there and treat u like shit it isnt worth it.. i am not the kind of person who would hurt another person.. in fact i help complete strangers all the time since i help run the business and all.... its nice to help ppl but when ppl sit there and degrade u bc u like someone or all that .. it makes helpin others not as fun anymore.. bc as they say it only takes one person 2 ruin it... what is it that makes ppl think they rule others or can decide what other ppl like or want to do? i have no idea.. but everybody who reads this .. id like to hear ur opinions.. plz leave me comments and let me no what they r..

ok tell me wut yall think... ok say this guy asks u out and all of a sudden stops talkin 2 u and says ur like nothing 2 him and then u later find out that he got engaged 2 another girl while he was wit u ...while all them nites he told u he luved u and everything.... i dont understand how guys can stoop so low as 2 hurt sum1 they supposedly luv...i just wish i can stop gettin hurt all the time bc every guy i been wit hurt me in sum way 2 make me leave ... i dont no wut i did 2 them but now im done wit men..

ok so i thought when your a guy with a girl you love her right? like you want to talk to her like everyday right. you share everything. You also want to see her right. Well I dont understand why a guy would ask you out and ignore you most of the time .. the when you finally ask why he is he tells you *my world doesnt revolve around you* even though you never had the chance to talk to him more then once a week because he never returns messages or calls or anyhing.. so what i am wondering is since when is that right .. to tell the girl YOU asked out that your world doesnt revolve around her?

i wonder y it is always the ppl who have the money r treated well.. while those who always helps others their whole life r treated like shit.... or y is there always ppl who r better then them like they r always and will always b second best 2 every1.... if ppl like the help .. y treat others different .. y not treat them like sum1 who has money bc u all no .. not 1 person is better then any1 else just bc they got money... so y is it different?

I have no idea y i get myself in situations where i care 2 much... bc then im the1 who gets hurt in the end when ppl leave suddenly or treat me different bc of other ppl... all i ever wanted was 2 b happy ..but it seems like all that ever happens is i get torn... its like im not meant 2 b happy... this is y i think im meant 2 b single... bc all the guys i want never want me... i just wish i understood y... y im the 1 every1 picks 2 hurt ... idk anymore