Again, as I write this, I have much on my mind. I had a rather intimate conversation with someone very close to me tonight and I feel as if I might have pushed them away slightly. I've discussed things that I swore to myself that I'd take to the grave with me, however, I felt a huge weight being lifted from my chest. I feel closer to this person than I have ever felt to anyone. I myself feel slightly scared inside as I feel this person might grow distant to me in the days ahead. I worry.
The person I speak of also shared secrets buried deep within themselves. I fear that they feel I have been pushed away. I have not. I feel that this person's ability and willingness to share such things with me is a sign of deep trust and faithfulness in me as a person. I shall not fail or betray this trust. My committment to this person's honesty, will, and soul will keep them safe from anyone having the spoken carnal knowledge that was shared tonight. I only hope for the same from them.
I hold a place in my heart for this person now. No matter our future, they will always be with me. I will never let this person leave the sanctity of my heart. I find it amazing that such a brief period of time has passed and my feeling toward this person has grown stronger with each minute. I can see in my mind a bright light embossing this person's face for eternity. A star in the sky, forever you will shine.
I am making public committment to them now. No matter where life takes us, I will be there when you need me most. I will be there when you fall. I'll pick you up when you're knocked down. You have my promise of faith, honesty, loyalty, and respect forever. A path entraveled, we'll discover together with love and friendship. You have me forever indebted to you and you know why. I am yours forever.
Now, I must wait. Wait for a sign of mutual trust and feeling. I'll wait with great patience until they are ready for me. When such a sign appears, I hope to feel overwhelming joy and happiness. Such bliss can only be dreamt, but I dream that it can be real.
-Sean
