Guess in life from the very moment were born were taught to believe in love ... lil did they tell us that one day u would find it and it would all be ripped away from u because of fear ...i was always taught to forgive the person u love not just anyone u love "the one " u love ... i ran into the one i know is the one for me ...but every lil mistake i do is wrong and it ends up getting me kicked out and while i know i made the mistake but isnt love supposed to conquer all? and i mean how do we know that this isnt one of gods tests to see what we do with the sit. and how can we make the best of it ... to me this person has made mistakes which have led me to have feelings that i just had to try and prove wrong in any other time i wouldnt forget but with him i feel he is my true soul mate and my dumbass can still see it all workin out ...ive never been one to keep the faith as strongly as i am now and have never really seen or felt it the way i do now guess it takes mistakes to see it but then how can it work if he doesnt want it too . I just dont want us to let two lil simple things be the reason it has all ended because u know i know in my heart that this was meant to be and that it still is . We could have so much more if only he could see that things could be better i honestly can say this ...the internet played a huge role in it ...U know in the begginnin i was promised alot and its been broken here and there and nothing was ever held to it cause im not the type of person to go and hate someone for the lil mistakes ... lil mistakes can be mended ..But to the person ...I love you very much no matter how hard this is for me how bad it hurts i still see the fire in it ...my heart has a burnin fire for you even after all this i still want each and every moment with u for the rest of my life some would say im dumb and i might be but i have to follow my heart ...just wish u werent afraid of repeating the past becuase the bad is in any relationship but if u have love the type of love that u know u have never felt before , then u shouldnt let it go cause u only have one life time to experience it and it takes damn near that to get it ...its hard to get the real thing and when u do get it u should do what ever u can to hold on to it even if it means workin out the kinks but in the end its all worth it if u get to sit on that porch with that person u love when ur old and gray lookin at the wildlife and looking back on the years thinkin im so glad i didnt let u go ...
