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Gateway has passed. he was a fighter. but he also knew it was time to move on!! i love you, Gateway! you will always be in my heart!!

i know alot of people think its stupid for people to love their pets like kids. well, i have a cat that i have had for 6 yrs, his name is Gateway. a few months ago, i had to have his leg removed because of cancer. he seemed to be doing fine until a cpl weeks ago. it seems he eiher still had some cancer left or developed more right above where he had it before. he isnt doing so well now. i dont think he will make it thru today. i have been making him as comfortable as i can and petting him and telling him "it's ok, let go". i am sure some are wondering why i dont take him to be put to sleep. honestly, i am not sure why i havent either. i know that if i did, i would not be able to do that alone and thats what i would have to do. i have set him up in my bedroom, so he can pass peacefully. my other cat seems to know something is wrong. he usually torments the shit out of Gateway, but not today. he just goes up to him and stand next to him. i am not exactly sure why i am even writing this blog. i think it is me letting go! i am having a hard time with it. i will still have to tell my son when Gateway does decide to move on. ok enough for now, i guess. tears are flowing!!

i lost a grandfather 2 yrs ago on NYE with cancer n now i have a grandmother who is not going to make it another month!! neither one of them smoked and yea they use to drink a lil, but nothing horrible. i on the other hand, smoke n drink. i am not sayin my day wont come, but why do they have to be taken by summin tht never should have affected them? i kno there isnt a "real answer" to tht, i am just venting. i feel i should trade places with my grandmother, let her live some more. i kno others will say, but she has lived a good life, THTS MY POINT!! WHY TAKE IT AWAY NOW? any way i am going to stop b4 i write a novel.