Creed Mirrick's blog: "life"

All these memories Distorted, confused, unaborted You're discarding As a product of Circumstances granted existence Bestowed to me Give me closure Searching for solance Closure - am I still lost? And so you've forgotten me The boy devoid of your nursery For these lifetimes gone by I can't help question why Through the years denied this Closure Searching for solance Closure - am I still lost? Tears gone uncried Torrid inside And no face to relate to names to reply Especially when the memories Cut like a knife Left with just pages to which I confide Especially when the memories Cut like a knife Left with just pages to which I confide Give me closure Searching for solance Closure - am I still lost? Especially when the memories Cut like a knife -am I still lost? Left with just pages to which I confide Especially when the memories Cut like a knife -am I still lost? Left with just pages to which I confide.

I READ ALL THE LETTERS, I READ EACH WORD THAT YOU'VE SENT TO ME AND THOUGH IT'S PAST NOW, AND THE WORDS START TO FADE ALL THE MEMORIES I HAVE, STILL REMAIN I'VE KEPT ALL THE PICTURES, BUT I HIDE MY FEELINGS SO NO-ONE KNOWS. OH SURE MY FRIENDS ALL COME AROUND, BUT I'M IN A CROWD AND ON MY OWN. IT'S BECAUSE YOU'VE GONE NOW, BUT YOUR HEART STILL REMAINS AND IT'LL BE HERE IF YOU COME AGAIN. YOU SEE, I'D HEARD THE RUMOURS, I KNEW BEFORE YOU LET ME KNOW BUT I DIDN'T BELIEVE IT, NOT YOU, NO YOU WOULD NOT LEAVE ME. SEEMS I WAS WRONG, BUT I LOVE, I LOVE YOU THE SAME AND THAT IS ONE THING THAT YOU CANT TAKE AWAY

I hide my love for you in a deep damp dark cave of my heart colleting dust never to see the light of day again

I'm sorry that I bought you roses to tell you that i like you I'm sorry That I was raised with respect not to sleep with you when you were drunk I'm sorry That my body's not ripped enough to "satisfy" your wants I'm sorry that I open your car door, and pull out your chair like I was raised I'm sorry That I'm not cute enough to be "your guy" I'm sorry That I am actually nice; not a jerk I'm sorry I don't have a huge bank account to buy you expensive things I'm sorry I like to spend quality nights at home cuddling with you, instead of at a club I'm sorry I would rather make love to you than just screw you like some random guy. I'm sorry That I am always the one you need to talk to, but never good enough to date I'm sorry That I always held your hair back when you threw up,and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car, but when we went out you went home with another guy I'm sorry That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere, but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friend I'm sorry If I start not being there because it hurts being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new jerk comes around I'm sorry If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours, instead of getting a couple hours of sleep before work I'm sorry that you can't realize.. I've been the one all along. I'm sorry If you read this and know somebody like this but don't care But most of all I'm sorry For not being sorry anymore I'm sorry That you can't accept me for who I am I'm sorry I can never do anything right, and nothing that I do is good enough to make it in your world. I'm sorry I caught your boyfriend with another girl and told you about it, I thought that was what friends were for... I'm sorry That I told you I loved you and actually meant it. I'm sorry That I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your boyfriend was threatening you instead of spending time with my family. I'm Sorry That I cared I'm sorry that I listen to you at night talking about how you wish you could have done something different.

~Hope~ [acoustic intro, slow singing] Hoping...For a life better than this Hoping...That I can be with you Hoping...For the chance to be loved by you [acoustic ends] Hoping...For the opportunity..To!...Love! [drum intro] [mid paced singing, screaming backing vox] On the day I met you I felt a deep connection(Did you feel it?) Like I've felt with no other(your the only one) Could this be love?!!! [drum fill w/blast beats] Hoping...Is all I can do Hoping...Is consuming my life Hoping...Is wearin me down [screaming vox] Sleepless nights Restless days All my time Spent Thinkin of you [guitar solo] [screaming vox] Hope is killing me!! [guitar solo] [acoustic starts up again with slow almost talking vox] Hoping has devoured my soul Hoping has murdered me Hoping has left me for dead....

life sucks. why is it every time i get to be happy some thing always comes up and fucks it up. my exs are happy, when the hell is it my trun to be happy