KellyBabyxxFEARxx's blog: "Reflections 2"

I've learned in the first 40 years that good girls always finish last..(sounds familiar huh guys??) I've learned that no matter how good your soul is... You're judged by the outside... Because outside beauty never fades right? Unless you marry a plastic surgeon and that doesn't even count.. And you can love someone with every ounce of love in your being and they never see what they had until you've been crushed into a million pieces; that while millions of miles or less than 10 separate you from the one YOU love... If they don't feel the same they will always find ways to make up reasons why not. And there is nothing you can ever do to overcome the power of fear. Ive learned that carrying your heart on your sleeve isn't necessarily a bad thing as long as you remember to keep the string on tight in case you need to pull it back in.. I've learned that I have so much still to learn from my children.. Mainly to never give up on a dream because odds can be beat. We forget that parenting is a priviledge it should not be taken lightly, I've learned that nothing seems sacred anymore. No one loves like they used to and selfishness is rampant. Ive learned that I was born a generation to late to accomodate my soul and heart. But I am here and alive, for how long is not known. For any of us is not known. We spend so much time being afraid of what if's... We forget to focus on the what can be's. We all get hurt..we all fail at some point...we all make mistakes..I've learned to ask God for help in not crying anymore and asking for strength to get up each day and work and love and keep the faith that I will be ok...it's not the end...not yet...I've learned that my heart is good, my soul is genuine and loving with all that i have in me is good enough...or at least it should be...      yet i haven't learned why i'm still alone and suffering every day.. maybe another lesson tomorrow will teach me...maybe not... all I know is that i am certain I will forever wait for my love story to be finished in the book of my life.. and i will bring with me all the chapters of my life thus far.. and I will love with the same tenacity as I do right now....