Countdown Clocks at WishAFriend.com I'll be 23 people!!!!!!!!!! This year will be a blast.

I just got back from TX. I was visiting a really good friend of mine from high school. My girlfriend and i drove out there with the baby and had a blast! I made it home safe and sound. The baby did very well on that long as drive.

I have to be honest with myself, I never pictured my life the way it is now. I thought at 22 I would be in college, not married and have a kid. Although, I would never give up my daughter for the world. I'm in a rocky marriage part of me resents him for moving me up here. I left my friends and family all behind for him and I still get nothing in return but being yelled at consently. Certain friends of mine are telling me to leave. I hate the fighting, I was never a fighter before. Before I met him I was independent, I never let a guy get the best of me. If he didn't call after a date or he would just decide to hang out with his friends instead of me, it didn’t faze me. I was actually fun. I didn’t really have a care in the world but my friends and family. The only good thing I got out of being here is I meet some wonderful people, which mean a lot to me. Some of them are real friendships that may last for a long time. Now to be honest if I left him, who would date me? I'm a mother. All the guys I know my age range wouldn’t want to date a women with a kid it’s to much baggage. That would be if I could even find the time to date. I miss it out there I haven’t felt wanted in so long. I know they say people change the most between 18 and 25. What else is going to change about me that am not already happening now? I write on here knowing no one I actually know is going to read these. I vent and not have to worry about messages "what’s wrong", "Are you okay"? What I am i going to do? How do I make myslef happy again?

In my life i've learned that everything happens for a reason and these events shape you as a person. I can appreciate this. Never in my life have I regreted anything that i have done or has happened to me. I have never wished to be different or change myself. Is it ok to want to change something about yourself??? Everyone has their faults and vices...but what if these vices make it more difficult to handle certain situations that occur in life? What if you've tried so hard to change these things but can't find a more productive way to channel the energy? I guess all you can do is stay persistent until the change is made. You can't change your ways over night...but oh how i wish you could. Persevere Now what if there is no possible way to change something about yourself? It is in your past, you've dealt with it and have even moved on to a different place in your life. But somehow it just seems to keep bitin ya in the ass. I've dealt with it, I've faced the facts and maybe thats all that matters. I just need to realize that we've all made mistakes (usually my mistakes or more idiotic) but i've become aware that they have no effect on my life from here on out. Ugh...sometimes i just wish!

You scored as Tie those ropes tighter!, You love bondage! Being tied up is your biggest thrill. Sometimes, it's all about the struggle, sometimes about being helpless, or maybe a bit of both. You love being physically unable to control what your lover is going to do to you. Tie those ropes tighter! 86% Yes Sir/Ma'am! 75% Pleasure and pain 71% How dare you smack my ass? 57% Ow, these handcuffs are too tight 57% Whips, chains and slaves 39%

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The Eskimos have hundreds of words for snow and we have 3 words for relationships’. The more words we invent it become hard to define things. In a world where you can date with out sex, screw with out dating, and in the end keep most of your sex partners as friends long after the screwing is over what really defines a relationship? I had a friend ask me, if she started talking to her Ex again would that be wrong? I asked her if she still had feeling for him and if she could put those aside for sake of a friendship. She is the type of person that would take them having sex again as being back together. I told her it didn’t and probably won’t be that way. How do we define a relationship that is just sex? How does the girl not get hurt, and how can she keep her feelings apart from the increasable kisses?

Relationships no matter how good are inevitably a series of compromises but how much of our self's should we be willing to sacrifice for the other person before we stop being ourselves? In a relationship, when dose the art of compromise become compromising?

When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?

Thats right iam almost done woot woot!!!! iam so tired of being prego i want this lil one out now! Only 4 more weeks till i pop this tihng out of me. I cant wait to see how she looks and hold her in my arms.

thats right bitches i moved up! iam physco now!!!