I have to be honest with myself, I never pictured my life the way it is now. I thought at 22 I would be in college, not married and have a kid. Although, I would never give up my daughter for the world. I'm in a rocky marriage part of me resents him for moving me up here. I left my friends and family all behind for him and I still get nothing in return but being yelled at consently. Certain friends of mine are telling me to leave. I hate the fighting, I was never a fighter before.
Before I met him I was independent, I never let a guy get the best of me. If he didn't call after a date or he would just decide to hang out with his friends instead of me, it didnít faze me. I was actually fun. I didnít really have a care in the world but my friends and family. The only good thing I got out of being here is I meet some wonderful people, which mean a lot to me. Some of them are real friendships that may last for a long time.
Now to be honest if I left him, who would date me? I'm a mother. All the guys I know my age range wouldnít want to date a women with a kid itís to much baggage. That would be if I could even find the time to date. I miss it out there I havenít felt wanted in so long.
I know they say people change the most between 18 and 25. What else is going to change about me that am not already happening now?
I write on here knowing no one I actually know is going to read these. I vent and not have to worry about messages "whatís wrong", "Are you okay"?
What I am i going to do? How do I make myslef happy again?