Well I dotn know much about this site and thats fine with me I guess. It is nice not know anyone and have a place to vent a new start. I have reached an impass in my life. I have ran into a wall of uncertanties. I have spent so much time running from my pain that now I have no where to run. To many one night stands and empty feelings haunt me now. I'm a guy I guess I shouldnt care, but I do. I have a son who I love with all my life and his mother we been broken up. She is on and off hot cold. Me I am lost and nt sure what I want I grwe up with out a father, so I want me and my son to be a familly with his mother. Though I realize she wont change she thinks only of her self I need more. So its hard when we see each other she says she wants us to be again but I dont think I can really. the scars runs deep, no I havent been perfect but who is. Still I need love. This empty life I have been living has left me void of all hapiness. Yeah it strange to just put this blog up here seeing I dont know any one but its nice at least I wont be judged well any way thats life
