i have been on an interesting journey, full of highs and lows. two weeks before christmas of '06 my now ex fiance and i split up after a little more than two and a half years. i was devastated and pretty much just crumbled. i have never loved anyone or been in love like i was with her. she meant the world & more to me and it's been a very intense time for me since then. i have learned alot though, through it all, being with her and losing her. i have grown as a person, as a man. she made me see things in myself that i didn't know existed, taught me about a love i thought only existed in stories and faerie tales....i know now how much i can care about someone, how much i can love and how deep that love can truely be. i know that i can truely sacrifice anything and everything for someone else's happyness and that it can truely be gratifying just to simply see someone else smile. it's amazing how much one person can change your life and make you realize what lies hidden inside you. for all the pain i have experienced there is so much more good that has come from the whole experience and despite my loss, i am truely grateful for everything.
i am trying to move on now and taking all i have learned with me. i know that there is someone out there for me and feel that i am truely ready to be the man that she needs me to be.....it's a wonderful feeling...knowing i have so much to give...knowing that there is true happiness in this all too often miserable world. with a little faith, an open mind, and a giving heart... wonders are possible. i wouldn't want anyone to know the pain i've felt, but i do wish everyone cold feel the absolut and incredible joys i've known.
