3554230's blog: "My Life"

Hi everyone.I hope all has been good since I haven't been on much lately.I doubt I was missed that much.

Since I have been here,I have only made one request for myself and with that request comes the rest of it.

I requested that no one expect a relationship with me at all on here.It has went un-heard several times as if I don't exist.In two more weeks my treatments will come to an end and I will learn where I am at in my life.

Through the most of it in many ways I have felt bad thinking maybe I did something wrong or that I have hurt someone in some ways and then they are gone(meaning I took them off my list).I have been honest and straight forward over this situation from the beginning,so why do I feel bad?

Who I choose to be with is my business if I choose at all.I have become so aggravated over all of this that when I am done with treatment I am seriosuly thinking about not coming back to fubar.I have had to watch what I say,what I do or what I put in my status and or blogs.I have stated I am single so many times I think I have turned blue in the face.

I have only two priorities in my life and that belongs to God & my lilman,everything is what it is.

Until I am better as they say or we meet we are not together.I am not some ditzy person that falls for all these games and yes I know feelings can happen,but until I get my life back I will not deal or embark on those.I will not put men in my sons life either until I am back on my feet.I feel like a recording sometimes & I always feel bad when I snap or say something about it.

I haven't been on much because Crystal had her baby.It was a girl weighing 8 lbs and 8 oz.I have been helping her out alot while I also deal with my problems.

I don't enjoy fubar that much any more.I know it wasn't meant but it happened.I ended up feeling I couldn't be who I was anymore.I couldnt cut up or have fun without this one or that one thinking this was going on.What I do is my business but some how it become others as well.

One thing I think some of you have found out.You push me.I back off.End of story.I have become so aggravated over all of this that I am starting to not care.

I do have feeling to you know and I say the things I say for a reason.I have said no relationships for a reason and even if I didn't,the point would be I said NO RELATIONSHIPS in my life at this point.Please be respectful of this.

I will not lie.I will be upfront.One thing that is my own is my life.I will tell you I am sick but I will not tell you how bad or what is going on.I am here for fun.Please respect this and stop with the  pissing wars because it only makes me want to leave even more.

If you buy me something or leave me a comment for me then I love it,but if you do it for other reasons and I find out,your history.I dont care how close we are.

I am not up for grabs nor am I owned by anyone.I am thinking of changing my number as well and hold up to what I said in the about me section of this page in the beginning.I have learned my lesson very well.I ask for the last time.


Please Respect my wishes!!!