My life starts out like this..............
All my life my mom resented me and always hide secrets from me. My father was a great guy before everything turned. My sister never use to be depressed until the day when I was 12 my mom kicked my dad out cause she didnt love him and she only wanted his money..She took my sister and I choose to live with my father...Ever since then my mom has always hated me and thinks down on me..My father quickly got remarried to a woman who never liked me and her daughters always treated me like crap..I got blamed for everything that went wrong in their lifes, They ran my life through the wall telling me I was ugly and telling me how I can never do anything right and how I was worthless...my father turned his back on me and I was alone for 6 years of my life, They made me cry in pain at nights...I learned that my step mother never wanted me to be apart of her family and that they were just money hungry like my mother, I tried all I could for my father to make everyone happy by taking all the blame and being their slave.. when I turned 18 I left my dads house in the middle of my senoir year and lived with my friends parents house and quickly after finishing high school, I waged a war against my father and my step mother and left oregon with a girl who I thought I loved only to have been used for her twisted game and then grabbed my heart of my chest and stepped on it...I then moved back to oregon and I moved to lebanon with my grandma and my disabled uncle...I soon realized that if I couldnt be apart of my step moms life then that I would atleast go over there and tell her how sorry I was but when I did all she did was turn her back on me and tell me that I didnt mean a word of it!!!!! for two years I was affraid to love anyone else cause I was affraid of pain but now I see life is Pleasure and Pain. I also learned my moms terrible secret of me and that is that when she was pregnant with me she never wanted me and only had me to keep my father and his money in her life!!!! one side of my family doesnt help me at all and the other side hates me and resents me so everyday my hearts on the edge and I try to stay positive cause if I dont fight back the darkness in my heart then how many more poeple would I hurt!!!!
well thats my past and its just a straight story I didnt make so dramtic cause drama I learned it retarded in everyway cause all it does is hurt poeple so who ever reads this please dont say sorry cause theres nothing to be sorry about I learned that cause of everything that happened Im a better person cause of it...Nothing can be changed about my past but I can change my future and thats why I dont look back....I dont care anymore if my step mom doesnt forgive me cause atleast I admitted my mistakes and thats all im happy about it is that I can see my mistakes and accept it and change and move forward in life!!!!
