yes they say that you only have one soulmate and though i have though to have met mine a couple times in the past i know that i have him in my life right now though the road is to happiness between us right now is a bit rocky i know in time things will smooth out and get back on the right track. i love him with everything that i am and then some. sometimes it may not seem that way that i do i love him unconditionally i know i have faults that have to be overcome and that i have to work on. jealousy being my main one and then my anger that is another and yes when i am upset i act sometimes without thinking and hurt those around me. i am working on that. i have told a white lie or two in the past i am working to overcome those too..but most of all i am working on keeping him in my life and not hurting him, he's my best friend and at times he is more then just my best friend..he's been my lover and he's been my shoulder to cry on and has dealt with my mood swings and just been plain there for me to make me smile with his playfulness, what i love most about him is he is caring and that he knows what to do to make me smile, though lately i don't think i make him smile much and i am sorry if i don't i just want to make life with you as good as it can be and i just wish that i weren't as pigheaded as i am to see how much you really do love me, sometimes i refuse to see it and sometimes i do push you away but it's not intentionally, i been hurt so much in my life that i am afraid to get too close just to have happiness slip through my fingers again. i have had one too many men walk out of my life or screw around on me and i have a hard time trusting...but that too i am working on that too...i want our love for each other to grow stronger everyday and i want so much for my son to share in that love and learn that his momma is not the biggest screw up in the world like she feels most of the time...i just hope that when you read this you don't take this the wrong way because i do love you with all of my heart and soul and will love you always and forever and a day.
with all of my love
DawnMarie
