Things arent getting any better at this point. Yesterday I went with Piers to see his daughter, Elizabeth. I had a good time but royally miss her alot. During the travel and all, Piers and I got to talking and I found out some interesting shit. James did everything that he could to break Piers and me up so that I couldnt have a happy life with someone who trully wants to take care of me. But I later on met Bair and well we hit it off and I have found someone that I can deal with that wont stress me out and treat like some piece of meat on the market. Bair has been looking after me and treating me far better than most guys that I have dated in the past, but I do miss Piers and Elizabeth alot. I use to smile and have major fun but that is changed. I found Bair and we both are wanting the smae thing out of life itself. That is to settle down with someone and have a family with that person. So its hard to make the choice as to who to trully be with. I am scared to trust my heart after being hurt so many times in the past by guys that say that they love me and only just use me1 Hopefully that has come to an end.
