Just want to get a few ideas and thoughts out of my head before they drive me insane. A few who know me on here knows that I lost my mother in April to kidney failure. It was sudden, and totally unseen. Not like anyone could ever prepare for some one close to them to die, but it was a complete shock that to this day I'm still caught off guard from time to time. Usually I can keep my mind busy so I don't think about the loss, but with the holidays happening and I have no clue how to stop them, I've been thinking about my mom alot. I've been dreading Thanksgiving because even though I've cooked about 8 turkeys in my cooking history, I've ALWAYS had my mom around for me to ask what temp and how long. And yeah I know most turkeys come with directions it was almost like our tradition. It was a way to keep my mom involved even though she could no longer stand the length of time it took to cook a meal. I spent a good part of last night unable to sleep because I knew it was just me and the turkey in the morning. No back up advice, no way to ask the expert. The turkey came out great, so somewhere at one time or another asking 50 million times, it must of sunk in. And it's going to sound corny but I've felt my mom here with me today, I'm comforted by that.
