everyday is a struggle, everyday is a battle. never knowing what to expect until it happens. what you choose to do when u face it, is another battle. its up to u to get over the unthinkable and make whatever u can better. yes we all have our ups and downs in life, but we cant let that get the best of us now. i admit there were so many times i just wanted to give up on life and damage myself. no one cared about what i wanted to become, since they wanted me to be like someone else, or what i wanted to becomem they showed no support. arguments with family members over what they think is right and wrong, losing people u thought were friends, cuz they made u weak, not strong. people trying to overpower u, just because they want to prove a point to someone else they hang around. what do u do when family and friends dont credit u, unless they want something from ya? your goals have to be put on hold just to please others? no one cares, and ur on ur own. Do u stick to it, or kill urself? I also admit i was close to commiting suicide about 5 times due to the pressure. almost stabbed myself with a pair of scissors, overdose of painkillers and other things, starving myself, drinking too much energy drinks after workouts, etc. no one knows this, but if u read this, u will be shocked about it. yes life is a struggle, but thanx to God, i was able to find ways to prevent killing myself. What can i say, I am a life fighter. we are all life fighters.