Well i know i've mummed about what to do? and well guess i just can't seem to get shit outta my head right now. I'm in sucha confused state of mind at the moment. The fucker i tryed trusting smothered me and hit me muliple times for money and my keys. Yeah WTF? why would i feel sad, guilt, mad, sorry for him, depressed? Should i not be thankful i'm out of the situation? Shouldnt i be wishing the fucker to rot in jail for the shit? Why am i feeling so many freaking feelings all at the same time? What makes me end up in such fucked up relationships. I know plenty have been in worse and many more than me? But I'm tired of it soem one always knows the answer. One says awwww....its ok you'll find a good one one day? one says hell maybe it's me? i drive them to be that way? lol. another might just say i'm too nice, some say i'm too damn gullible. WTF? i just wanna scream. i'm getting to where i'm scared and tired of trying not to hold past relationships on the the next man but no matter what i end up in a similar situations? IS IT ME? Am i too fucked up, too ugly too dumb too fat too stupid too Hell WHAT IS IT? idk? i'm ready to join a convent. lol. well just my way of trying to get some of this off my mind.
