so this entire month has a been pretty much a living HELL for my family and me. my dad was diagonised with Congesitve Heart Failure earlier this month, he also has high blood pressure, high choslteral (so i cant spell bite me), and only about 24% of his heart is working (normal person is around 68%), he had a heart cath preformed on both sides of his heart this past weds, no blockage...thats good...but he does have a badly leaking valve in his heart. so now he must go back to his cardiologist and decided when/where/if they are gonna do surgery to correct this problem.
now on to my mom she has been diabetic (type 2) for years and well over weight (nothing new here) well she's catching hell from her boss at Forrest General Hosptial cuz the bitch women hates new nurses, so mom is now stressed out and having to stay at job she dreads going to bc we need the insurance for my dad so her evil boss lady sent her to be evaluted by another dr who put her on antidepressants (yet again she took them 9yrs ago when ricky died). now mom has a bad staph infection under her arm, it goes really deep and is really painful, well she had surgery on it today on the spot and has to stay in the hospital over night cuz she has to take a antibotics that can only be given by a drip (IV).
now to my sister: her hubby decided he doesnt love her anymore, put her out, kept the car and their kids, and wants a divorce... thats it there.
on to lil ashtin: he has a staph infection on his thigh. poor lil guy had a huge red area covering his thigh, it hurt him so much that he could barely walk. well the wound busted open last night and i had to take him to the ER last night to have minor surgery on it. i felt like a horrible mommy while they did the surgery cuz all they did for my poor lil guy was give a shot around the wound (which was also tender as hell) and three stangers were holding him down while a 4th was cutting on him and hurting him... he was reaching out for me and crying and screaming for me but all i could do was stand there and watch, balling my own eyes out cuz i couldnt touch him. after it was over and he was all covered up i held him and didnt wanna put him down and kept telling him im sorry and i love him. he's feeling okay today but has to take meds for the next 10 days and i have to keep cleaning his wound, which hurts and he cries 'mommy no' which makes me again feel horrible. he is on constant meds to kill the pain so he can walk around but its not enuff. he still has some infection in his lil leg but thats what the antibotics are for. im hopeing i dont have to put him thru last night again ever again, it would kill me. oh his daddy is still a butthead and not paying child support yet, missed our court date to set that up this month bc of a 'new job'... what a fucking crock of shit. he keeps asking how i am but never about ashtin so i refuse to talk to him unless im being a bitch.
anyhow this is getting to be long sorry but this is all of like the past 19days. as for me im fine so far... just breaking down and losing my mind and wondering what is gonna happen to me when. i'll keep all of my friends posted on whats up with everyone when i can.
and i just dont feel like talking about the 'relationship' im in right now for personal reason, so dont ask.
