since i let you leave its
been as if there is a rain cloud
over my head.
waiting for me to find out how
to get you back. My head has
let go but my heart just want let me.
I don't want to i just wasn't to be
happy again, the way it was when i was
with you, you made me laugh when i didn't
even want to smile you always knew what to
say to make me feel better. I use to lie to
my self and say it was you but then i
realized it was me i was in love and
didnt know what to do, in love with
you and no one wanted us to even be
together. my own family didnt even
want me to be with you. they didnt
want me to be happy they wanted me
to be with someone that would "help me"
but you did help me i was happy for the
first time in years. no one seen it but
i felt better about myself and how my
life had turned out and what happen to
my family how it was torn apart but no
one saw that but me i never told anyone,
i never showed my sadness or my fear of
how my life would turn out. because you
made my want to do good you made me want
to go for my dreams and not listen to ppl
when they said i was nothing and wouldn't
ever become anything you made me want to
be me. and there are still people telling
me to let it go it isn't love just lust
and i know what love is and this is it.
i cant just turn my back and act like i
don't love you when i do i just do and
no one can change that they have. it
don't matter how many guys try to get
with me or "love" me i turn them down
and will until i feel as if its really
over and there is nothing i haven't done
in my head to get you back i know i
might sound desperate but i don't care i
love you and im not giving up on love i
know some one did that and i seen the
effects on her and i don't want that to
happen to me.
