I hated you as a man...I hated you even more as a father...You never once made it apparent that you even loved me...I was your only flesh and blood creation and you treated me shit (Dad)...Don't think that even though you have been dead for 6 years...that I still don't resent the way you treated me as your kid...I don't care that the alcohol was more important to you...The only thing that makes my anger so real and true is that you took in some money grubbing...over possesive whore...and you treated her and her daughter with more respect than you did myself...I never did you any wrong...yet I wasn't part of your life...Why the fuck didn't you just disown me when I was a child...that way we could have avoided any of the problems...But you had to drag my ass around for the ride didn't you...You were a pathetic human being...a fucking waste of my time...I wish that I never knew you...I would have been better off...
So growing up without you being around Dad...I was left out of a lot of activities...It took my bestfriends father to step up and take me under his wing...guide me through life...and be a father figure...And to this day...I Love him far more than I ever loved you...I'm almost happy that your dead...All I have left to complete is to end the very existence of your former partner...Even near the end of your life...you knew my resentment towards her... yet you kept throwing her into my face...like it was a joke...were you fucking stupid?...It's your fault I wish her dead...It's your fault dad...that my life is spiraling...and she is the one who is going to break the fall...
6 Years...I've had to wonder how to live the next day...I constantly push away the rabid thoughts of anger...You would have never understood the pain you put me through...you should have taken off your glasses...and realized that you were missing a very important part of your life...but that didn't matter...you had her...I hope that you are rotting in hell...where you belong...you were never my father...you were a donor...Be proud that I even acknowledge your existance...
I FUCKING HATE YOU
