My Dearest Ian,
My sadness has taken a form. One of many lonely, sleepless nights wishing you was still here. April 7 we would be celebrating your second birthday. All the dreams and plans I had for you have slowly been eating my heart. I never got to say goodbye, but I got to say goodnight and I love you. Why did you leave me munchkin? I can not understand it. The pain is sometimes too much to bear. I want you back and I know with deep sadness that this will never be. I will reamin on earth till my last breath and pray that you will remeber me when I come home to be with you. I hope you know that there is not a day that go's by that I don't think of you. I think of you in wakeing and in dreams. You consume my being and my every thought. It is hard to let you go angel, but I know I must if you are ever to have peace. I hope that on your birthday that you are well in God's arms and in Nana and PawPaw's. I hope you remeber me, your mommy. I hope that you remeber your daddy as well. Time may stand still for you but for me, little one it is torture. I love you always, and I hope that on your birthday you will remeber your daddy and me, and send us a little love from above. I love you munchkin. Good night, Sweet dreams, and be at peace my angel.
Love Forever Your Mommy,
Heather Lisa Marie Zielonski
