I'm not here to impress anyone. I say whatever comes to mind, whenever I want no matter how crazy it sounds. I am extremely random, and sometimes I don't make sense. But that is just how I am. Sometimes I swear I can be Happy,Sad,Angry,Confused,Anxious and Excitied all at the same time. No, that doesn't make me nuts, it makes me complicated. There is no middle ground with me, either you love me or you hate me.
When I love someone I love them with all I have. I hate doing things half assed. My friends are my family. I do not have to meet you in the flesh to care about your well being. Most mistake my kindness for blindness. Sucks for them when they find out I can be a real bitch when I'm being used. I don't like to be a bitch but some people force me to show that ugly side.
I believe that if you don't work hard in life you will have nothing. I hate lazy people. I hate men who sponge off their women while being a trifling ass cheating around on her. People who get things handed to them on a silver platter will be up shit creek once the gravy train runs out in my opinion. If you never worked hard you won't appreciate what you have. Hard work does pay off, it builds character.
If I had to pick one moment in my life that makes me who I am today I would say it would be the day I became a mom. I didn't know love until I held my son Tyler. I spent my childhood, and most of my teenage years being abused. Never knowing the love of a mother or father. Always being told I was not worth anything, that I was ugly. I was beaten emotionally, and physically. Something inside me tho' wouldn't let me quit even tho' as a child I prayed nightly that God would let me die.
Now, I spend my days holding the beautiful children I carried inside me and reminding them how much their mother loves them. Doing all the things I had wished had been done for me. I know I'm truly loved when Mookie wraps his chubby arms around my neck and gives me a sloppy kiss. Thank you God for unanswered prayers. <3
