OKAY SO I'VE BEEN UP ALL NIGHT LONG TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF THINGS I'VE BEEN THRU RECENTLYPERSONALLY WITH THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN MOM AND ME. THOUGH IT IS SAD I KNOW NOW THAT I JUST NEED TO LET HER GO AND MOVE ON. I AM LEARNING THAT LETTING GO IS MUCH MORE DIFFICULT WHEN I KNOW DEEP DOWN IT IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO TO KEEP MY SANITY. BUT THE HARD THING FOR ME IS THAT SHE IS MY MOM. I KNOW THAT LATELY I'VE BEEN POSTING REALLY DEEP EMOTIONALLY STRONG BLOGS I'M SORRY FOR THAT BUT PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT THESE ARE MY TRUE FEELINGS AND IT HELPS ME TO LET THEM GO AND FREE MY HEART IF I WRITE.I'M A WRITER IT'S JUST WHAT I DO. SO WITH THAT BEING SAID LET ME CONTINUE.
TONIGHT I DID MY NORMAL ROUTINE BY CALLING JAMES AT 6AM HIS TIME AND MIDNIGHT HERE, THE ONLY THING DIFFERENT WAS THAT FOR THE FIRST HALK OF OUR CONVO I JUST CRIED AND CRIED CUZ OF ALL THIS. HE WAS GREAT AND JUST STAYED ON THE PHONE WHILE I CRIED, HE REASSURED ME IT WAS OK TO CRY AND THAT THINGS WILL BE OK, I KNEW I LOVED HIM BEFORE BUT TONIGHT I REALLY FELL IN LOVE WITH HIME EVEN MORE, IT'S FUNNY HOW SILENCE CAN BRING 2 PEOPLE CLOSER TOGETHER, ANYWAY I WAS AND AM TRYING TO HEAL MYSELF THRU WHAT I LIKE TO CALL MUSIC THERAPY. SND HAVE BEEN BLOGGING SPECIAL SONGS ALONG THE WAY. WHILE DOING SO I CAME ACROSS THIS ONE SONG CALLED LOVE WILL ALWAYS WIN PART OF IT GOES **NO WAY OVER IT, NO WAY AROUND IT IF WE WANT IT WE HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT* THAT IS SO TRUE AND IT ALSO REMINDED ME THAT THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. SO EVEN THOUGH THIS HURTS ME LIKE HELL IT IS ALSO TEAVHING ME TO BE A STRONGER WOMAN AND A BETTER MOTHER TO MY CHILD. AND I'M SURE MOM IS LEARNING A LESSON FROM THIS ASWELL. TY TO ALL OF YOU FOR UR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND SUPPORT TTHRU SUCH A ROUGH TIME. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH.
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