after 4 years of memorizing everything about you, down to how you like to fuck and where you like to blow your load...the way you like your coffee, the way you take your eggs. i have to learn everything over. i have to memorize a complete strangers likes and dislikes. i don't want to do that. i want to have my list, and know it by heart, so that i know you by heart. i don't wanna know anyone else like that. you are the only one i need to know like that. i laugh at your racist jokes because i think they are funny. i let you call me woman because i know what you mean is beautiful. who else do you know who will tell you she likes you fighting because it turns her on? its all over in the time it takes to read one god damned text message. "its not you, its me. i'm sorry. goodbye courtney..." you walk of with an ache in your heart. i crawl off with only dust left of my heart and free flowing tears to mark my trail.
