I sit here drinking my coffee in silence...
my brain is busy chewing on things I could control if I chose to..
but because I am stubborn I won't.
My yahoo is off...and will remain off for a bit..
many apologies to those of you I cherish enough to
have close enough to me to access me thru it.
I am in a weird emotional place...it sucks...and I don't
mind admitting I am sitting here wallowing in my
own self pity.
I will bounce back as surely as I will never quite be 5'3" tall
haha...sadly my dream of having long slender legs
will never come to fruition. My shoutbox is open and will remain
open...I may not answer..either because I am not in the mood
to be social or because I am not here. I won't apologize for this.
I love my friends...and I shall list them if necessary, though it isn't..
they do know who they are LOL.
I started changing my page, small subtle changes..
but change is inevitable.
I just rearranged my room as well...so it is a huge upheaval not
only in mind, but in body.
Poems will appear in my poetic attempts blog.
If they make you sad..don't read them..if they make you think
that is awesome..if they make you cry...I will fax some puffs :)
I want to say that this month will be officially
"Alana thinks boys are dumb" Month
Sweet November....isn't very sweet at all...my sheets
will remain unused on the right side of the bed..
and the sadness in my heart will continue to smother
my spirit...until it passes...
I am hoping December will bring some comfort even if it is
only an inner peace.
