“The last serenade at razor’s edge”
My mind takes fight
As I wonder what’s to become of me
I’ve watched my past go by
And I think of how things use to be
Tears flood my eyes
Because I am finally giving up
I’m saying my last good-byes
I’ll go fast with some luck
I’m alone inside
Even thought there are people all around
I’m going to take my life
But I won’t make a sound
Time passes by
Every second ticks
My live will soon be over
Though right now it’s only nicks
Soon to be slashes of my former self
As these bloodstained sheets
Now hold with-in my final breath
I can’t control this feeling
Of which I’ve finally found
But I don’t want to see any tears
When you find my body on the ground
I know you won’t understand
So just think of it a dream
But don’t blame yourself
I just need to be free
My pain will not be long now
The blackness is closeting in
I’m watching scenes from my life
The people I’ve met & the places I’ve been
I laugh to spite the fear I feel
Because I am afraid
I’m going to a place I’ve never been
And I’m going there today
So far I’ve lost my sense of speech
Now my feelings go there after
And I see all the people I’ll always hate
Can you hear their horrid laughter?
I’m torn by the thought of life and death
I can fight it now
And just perhaps I’ll live
But something tells me not to
And next it’s my soul that I give.
Things are to far gone now
I can’t hold back the reaper…..
Here he comes
And he’s told me
I’m a keeper.
01-02-92
J.R.A.F.
