well, what can i say.. its almost 11:30 pm and Im bored as fuck... Im sittin here watchin myself type.. but not sure what's really going to come out or anything as im not thinkin of what to right or how to say anything.. i just feel like doing some mad ass typing so away i go....
Things have been different with everything i say and everything i do.. I use to be happy and no just all throwin away... I feel so mixed up and its not for what i've done .. i just need to know he loves or has someone else won? I know that im selfish and a lil bit jelious.. OH OH OH OK.. ALOT jelious but can u blame me ... LOOK at this boy.. he wants to be a man.. NoT ready for what was delt to him but LOOK how he runs.. He never knows if his up or down.. just layin back "relaxin" fuck all that and take a stand... LEarn how to be A MAN... Nothing in the world is going to make it easier.. just take a step up and learn to sing a song... make it how it sound and sound it how it feels... if this is too much for u throw it away NOW... This will never change i will never be the same... HURT and Blame is my fault.. but, how should comprehend... fuck, i can't spell but u'll still understand.. i need to know what's wrong... I'm suppose to be the one that's there but by the way it looks.. That fat bitch is where u look... Im sorry that u lost me .. im sorry u lost the care... U should learn not to make promises to one u can't compare... I know this is wacked.. and i know this is mean.. I know this is everything that no one's probley ever seen... IT don't make sense now.. and it might just for a few.. but in the long we'll all see.. IM THE ONE THAT WINS... blah blah blah.. no one really cares.. its words on a fuckin screen that get burned into ur mind... GO GO GO and GOOD luck with ur shit.. cuz now u can't have nothing u'll burn just as slow... nailed up on teh cross to what u can't escape.. now, we'll watch and laugh and dance.. to have u men erased... No one ever crazy enough to say the words before.. Im not a sexist, racist pig.. I just can't stand the male race... wow.. this is fucked up and this is really wrong.. SOOOO fuck u all with penis.. where is my pussy land.. lol.. hahahahahaha FUCK U all... GOD i wish i lived far away .. with nothing but water around me.. NO one could ever hurt the way u all have... U'll never know what it's like for me and them alone... u'll never know just how i feell cuz u left me all alone... this isn't the way its suppose to be.. and the lies just keep runnin thicker.. but oh well who cares .. its done its over.. IM GONE.. so much for the I LOVE U's . and all that BS crap... theres only one man for me and baby u aint CLOSE to bein him.... Everyone can judge me.. cuz i judge u all right back... so fuck u all and come get on my back... I hate u all the same.. some i want to make u hurt.. just so u know what u delt... THANK TO all teh BITCHS taht fucked up my REALTIONSHIPS.. THANKS to all the HOs. that didn't know how to say NO... THANKS to all the BASTARDS that just wanted a quick fuck... THANKS TO all the MOMMYS that should have kick u in the ass... I hate u all.. ur all fucked up.. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR... this sucks... Thank god.. for my insanity.. Oh wait.. thats going too.... Nothing will ever be the same nothing ever right... but at least i have the smile on my face that i know his with me every night... ha ha ha.. I don't hate the game and i don't hate the players.. i hate UR mommys for teachin how to loose... lol.. or soemthing like that... well thats howi wrote it and tghats how it came out... so ha .. thats all i wrote BITCH...
