(Written By; David N Herrera)

In Loves Last Embrace,

You Held A Gun Too My Head,

Kissed me,

You Said "I love You"

But Not That Way..

.


I have waited for so long for you to pull that trigger...

In my heart that's all I wanted from you...

Kill me so I may shed no more tears of pain...

...But...

You left me standing there.

You had no heart...

You left me in pain...

I was so sure that you felt for me the way I did for you...

But in truth....................

I was nothing more than an object.

A tool...

A means to an end...

I thought you loved me so much.

I thought you would end the suffering before it began...

The darkness has feasted upon my bare and naked soul...

I am alone



I have stood here waiting for the light to return back to my eyes.

I can't see beyond the darkness that has covered me...

Were is my god when I need him most???

Why must I wallow in the filth that has been left behind after her leaving me behind???

I am not strong enough to stand on my own...

I am cold...

All I wanted was the swift death she promised me...

I have wondered in this darkness for so long...

I have sought the love i once felt for you,,,

i found none...

i have tried to take my life countless times and yet not died...

am i dead already???

Have I so much HATE that I continue to live in spite of myself?

is there a true answer for me???