3202796's blog: "Return To Me"

I feel everyday is a journey, a day that is so hard to finish, like i can never compete. Is it supposed to be like this? Where was the happiness of my youth? My heart is yurning for the truth. For my passion superceeds my inner strength, the ability to accomplish, to strive ahead. I will be a different person in the months to come, I will be strong, I will know what it takes to take on the world... I just pray i will not have to do it alone.. My companion, my love I need you... a soft gentle touch that flooded memories of times past has my heart on a string. for the weight is heavy but soon it will break and when it does, i hope you are there to catch me. You may have skin so tough, calyst from years of bitterness and grief, the world pulling you down, one day at a time. But darling, my will is stronger, but your skin opens for me to an exposed heart.. a beating organ that longs to be cradled, to be loved, sweetly touched, cared for... Not babied but taken care of.. 

I can only show you love, to accept it yourself is the key to unlocking the mystery that has weighed on you heart and mind for so many years.. baby, someday If it is ment to be, i hope to hold ur hand, gaze into your eyes and tell you those three words that weaken my knees.. and takes my breathe away.. i want to gaze at ur beauty as you sleep, kiss ur cheek as your eyes open and be the wonderful greeting to a beautiful day in a life that can only be in dreams. ... To share the music and the laughter and the tears we have and to spend life sharing those memories..and knwoing in my heart there is noone like you.. Im cryin thinkin of it.. hoping against all odds that G-d will bring me to you and our paths will cross and i will be worthy to be called yours.. to be so called would bring me the deepest honor and humbling achievement i will ever obtain.. for my soul is half empty from the loss of my soulmate and i believe that someday, you will find it in yourself to feel the same. For to love and to of lost is better than to of never loved at all. 

For this i promise, i would bear millions of scars for you, climb the highest mountain for you, walk miles upon miles, swim the deepest ocean and live the hardest life.... just to have a CHANCE to love you again. For when you hurt, i hurt and when you cry, i cry too...but all the pain imaginable is worth just a moment of this life with you. You are my best friend... my other rib, my soulmate.. someday when you look back and see me... i hope.. you RETURN TO ME....

Donny