3876750's blog: "Knot Knitting"

Meh, Why does every guy that talks to you online and might be interesting have to ask for your number instead of asking if they can just add you to their buddy list? It is like you might have at some point later actually wanted to talk to them because they seemed alright but then they have to go and blow it by asking for your number.

I do not get guys.

My blogs are friends only now but I am tired of morons with no pics of themselves and/or salute coming into my blogs and treating them like the MuMMs. If you do not like it then you do not have to come to my blogs anymore. I don't give a fuck either way. Just trying to cut down on the bullshit because I am seriouslly not in the mood anymore.

I am not here for your popularity contest nor do I give a fuck about being in one myself. I took my GED the day I turned 17 because I was sick of dealing with it then and I really do not have time for it here anymore either. Either you like me or you do not. 

So I have decided that out of all the famous people in the world that have gone and left us that I would really like to meet Anne Frank the most. I just watched a recent remake of "The Diary of Anne Frank" on the public broadcasting station and it spoke to me in this way. Have you ever thought to yourself that you are alone and then heard to story of a celebrity and just known that they would be that person that understoood what you are going through?

Is this arrogent to think this about someone that you have not nor never will meet or is that the purpose of these kinds of media in the hope that this person's story will speak to the masses?

I had never read the book as in high school I had the oddball teacher who had us read "The Hiding Place" instead of "The Diary of Anne Frank". It is a different view of the same wartime story with another family. I think I want to read Anne Frank's version now.

So what famous dead person would you want to meet and why? What do you imagine that you would do if you got the chance to meet them?

So I had been feeling pretty down and such. Someone gave me a Xanax last night to chill out as I did need to chill out a bit. I think I must have been visited by the xanax fairy last night  (not the person on here with that handle) because wow I feel a lot better today. I feel more like myself. I have been very lonely due to not knowing anyone in this area and had given up actually on meeting anyone. I had given up on trying.

There is dry karoake tonight that I was also told I should go to by the person that gave me the Xanax. I had saw no point in even going as I was going to just sit there by myself and be bored waiting for my chance to sing. I think I will go and take my knitting and knit while waiting between songs. That way I shall be entertained if no one talks to me. I do not considermyself anti social but I guess am not the best at just saying hi to new people sometimes. I am also very used to having people walk up to me and say hi. I was always doing Tarot for 20 people or something that I assume mademe look interesting to a lot of people so I always made one or two friends by being out doing this.

I guess I need to trim down my facial hair and wear my hair down tonight. I guess I will even go in my closet and find a flashier shirt of mine to wear. Prolly go with just some jeans or something but I wantmy old razzle dazzle when I go try this tonight.

Any comments, suggestions, ideas or such are of course welcome.

ALL PRAISE THE XANAX FAIRY!

Am I allowed to block someone from a MuMM if he claims something and refuses to show a screenshot?

Drinking again and very bored. I am so ready for this dusk period in my life to end. I am ready to start working again now. I am listening to some older Type O Negative tonight. Suspended in Dusk. The song seems to fit though as it is raining quite heavily here tonight.

So I thought that I would explain the name change on here that I have recently made. There is a Type O Negative album called October Rust that has stayed one of my favorites. I do think it is still my favorite album ever even though it came out in 1996. There was a magazine article that I had read that said that they almost named the LP 1313 in honor of The Munsters address of 1313 Mockingbird Lane. My first yahoo address is a varation of October Rust and 1313. Nowdays I tend to either go with something Raistlin or something 1313.

So how did you choose your screen name here?

Well I have not really been doing much blogging so I thought that I would write one and get out some of what I am feeling and thinking about right now.

I shall be finally going back to work by the end of the month at least for awhile. I did finally get the call from the US Census taker people to hire me. I had sort of give up on it and thought they had just not hired me for whatever reason. So I was of course elated to get the call. I had also been begging the gods for work since I am still going through something of a dark period even though it is very much Spring here now. Have you ever had that one person that no matter what you did that you could not get off your mind? Well I have one still and I know that it is very unhealthy to keep thinking of someone and also know that getting out and being around people is the best cure.

It is going to be odd since I have been in a lot of seclusion at first but I have always been a work with the public type. Whether  I was waiting tables or being a cashier somewhere the jobs I have liked the most always involved a lot of customer interaction so knocking on random doors and asking random questions should both help me and be enjoyable to me once I get used to it again.

I am also thinking it may be time for me to pass the torch of my mom to my sister soon and I am debating moving once this job finishes. If I can save it all then I would have enough to make a move. The weird thing is that I really do not know where I would even want to move to. I do know a few places that I do not want to live and here happens to be one of them. My best friend forever is in California and  while I have nothing against Cali I am also not the least bit interested in going out that far. So how do you find a niche and place to move to when you do not really know anyone anymore and have no clue where to go?

Just some thoughts I am having today.

So  I have missed blogging far too much now so I had to be reborn in some sese at least. Now if I can remember how the blogs work and such. I have always been something of a writer though and taking away my ability to write just sort of sucked in this way.

However I thought that I would start my first blog with my most recent knitting project. I am currently working on my first pillow case. I know the pic does not show very well as my webcam sucks but this is what I have done. It is now just about a foot long and I just started the dark green layer on the top.

So how have you fuckers been?