So here ya go....I really need to just get some shit off my chest right now and I don't want to burden or annoy anyone with it on the phone or on here or in person so that's why I got my blog......
I'm still here and alive. I'm doing OK, probably better then I should be but I'm still alive. The kids are doing good. It's only been a week and a couple of days but apparently he doesn't want to talk to me about anything. I just can't see anyone throwing 2 years down the drain with a kid in the mix, but if that's what's gotta be then it has to. It's not gonna stop me one bit. I got a job and a place lined up for me and the kids to live at so I'm not doing too bad so far.
I want this to be civilized but how can it be when we don't work together. It seems like I've been left to die on the ground. I'm not getting the feedback that I would like to because I'm not getting any at all. I'd at least like something. Whether it be good or BAD! It's better then nothing. I'd rather have Bad then nothing. At least I can have some kind of closure. It's killing me sitting here with nothing. I can at least move on a little more with something. Just say goodbye if that's what you want.
The worst part about it is my friends try to help and give me the same advise I gave them and even I can't follow it. So what good was that advise?
*Just hear me out. If it's not perfect then I'll perfect it till my heart explodes!*
*I tear my heart open, just to fail*
I can't even get my mind off anything being at my moms with nothing to do except be on the computer.
Well that's all for now folks!
ROCK ON BITCHES!!
Jax
