DJTwistedMedicDesires Real HubbyJUGGALO's blog: "KAT IS MY LIFE!!!"

I'M SORRY,I LOVE YOU !! I'M SORRY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I GET STUPID I'M SORRY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I MISUNDERSTAND I'M SORRY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I THINK I AM NOT MAN ENOUGH TO HOLD YOUR HAND I'M SORRY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY HEART LIVES IN FEAR THAT I'LL WAKE UP AND YOU WON'T BE THERE I'M SORRY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I GO CRAZY WHEN I THINK OF OTHER MEN LOOKING AT MY WOMAN I'M SORRY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I HURT YOU WITH MY TEMPER AND CHILDISH WAYS BUT I'M NOT SORRY I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU I AM NOT SORRY YOU ARE MY WORLD MY LIFE I WILL BE THERE SOON MY LOVE AND BOTH OUR FEARS WILL BE PUT TO REST AS WE HOLD EACH OTHER AND FALL ASLEEP IN PEACE I DO SO SO LOVE YOU MY KAT,MY WOMAN,MY LIFE XOXOXOXOXOX YOUR MAN!!

HOW DO I TELL YOU?? HOW DO I TELL YOU YOU ARE MY LIFE HOW DO I TELL YOU YOU ARE THE BEAT OF MY HEART HOW DO I TELL YOU YOU ARE MY BREATH HOW DO I TELL YOU YOU ARE THE BLOOD IN MY VEINS HOW DO I TELL YOU ARE THE LIGHT OF MY SOUL HOW DO I TELL YOU ARE IN EVERY THOUGHT HOW DO I TELL YOU YOU ARE EVERY CELL IN MY BODY HOW DO I TELL YOU YOU ARE THE REASON I LIVE HOW DO I TELL YOU YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE I GUESS I JUST SAY I LOVE YOU AND PRAY YOU HEAR AND KNOW IT'S THE TRUTH I LOVE YOU MY KAT MY DESIRE AND AM COMMITED TO OUR LOVE OUR LIFE OUR FAMILY !!

NOTHING FANCY MY LOVE IS NOTHING FANCY,NOTHING GRAND MY LOVE CAN BE HELD IN MY LOVERS HAND IN THE TIP OF A FINGER,THE CORNER OF A SMILE MY LOVE IS STRONG ENOUGH TO MAKE ME GO MILES YET GENTLE ENOUGH TO HOLD HER HEART WITH EASE MY LOVE MAKES ME BRAVE AND MAKES ME WEAK MAKES ME LAUGH WITH JOY,OR CRY WITH DEEP SORROW BUT MY LOVE NEVER LETS ME DOWN OR GIVES ME UP MY LOVE IS ALWAYS THERE AND I WILL HOLD HER FOREVER AND BEYOND MY LOVE IS A SLEEPING ANGEL AND A BEAUTIFUL,FAITHFUL,BELEIVER IN ME AND I WILL NEVER LET HER DOWN !! FOR YOU MY DESIRE MY KAT FROM YOU MEERLY MORTAL LOVER AND MAN FOREVER!!!

THIS IS FOR YOU KAT I WAS ALONE IN A WORD DEVOID OF LIFE I LIVED WITH MY THOUGHT AND MY PAIN YES I HAD LOVE AND LOST,AND KNEW THE COST WAS SURE IT COULD NEVER EVER HAPPEN AGAIN SO I SAT ON THE COMPUTER TO CUT THROUGH MY GLOOM TO BRIGHTEN THE PLACE THAT HAD BECOME MY TOMB I WATCH THE PLAYER,THE LIERS,THE HURTERS THE THEVES,SAW PEOPLE DISTROYED BY THEIR NEED SO LONELYNESS AND DOUBT REMOVE ALL SELL ESTEEM AND DEEDS TO TERRABLE YOU WANTED TO SCREAM. I TOLD MYSELF I WON'T FALL FOR THE GAME BUT THE STALKERS STILL TRIED NO MATTER WHAT THE NAME IT WAS ALL STILL PAINFUL AND LAME. THEN ONE NIGHT AT MY LOWEST DECLINE SOMETHING GOT MY ATTENTION AND TUGGED AT THIS DEAD HEART OF MINE,IT GAVE A LEAP AND MY EYE OPENNED WIDE FOR THERE IN THE HUMAN WASTE AN ANGEL APPEARED..NOT QUIET WHAT YOU'D EXPECT IN A PLACE LIKE THAT BUT GOD SENDS THEM TO US IN PLACES LIKE THAT,WE BEGAIN TO TALK YOU MADE MY HARD HEART MELT WITH YOU I FELT THINGS I'D LONG NEVER FELT,THINKS I WAS CONVINCED WERE LONG DEAD AND GONE..MY HEART BEAT FASTER AND SANG A NEW SONG AND I KNEW THAT OUR LOVE EACH DAY WOULD GROW STRONG. AND NOW I'M COMMITED AND READY TO CHANGE MY EMPTY LIFE AND HEART TO COME TO YOUR SIDE AND BE YOUR MAN..TO GIVE TO YOU AND YOU ALONE ALL THE LOVE THAT I CAN,I KNOW I SCREW UP AND TELL A BAD JOKE,MY TIMING SUCKS AND I ANGER YOU SOMETIMES BUT I LOVE YOU AND PRAY IT'S ENOUGH..GIVE ME THE CHANCE TO FLY TO YOUR SIDE AND BE THE MAN YOU NEED TILL THE DAY THAT I DIE... I LOVE YOU MY KAT AND AM TRYING TO BE THERE SOON!!

ROOTS AND WINGS !! LIFE IS HARD TO TAKE SOMETIMES WHEN YOU ALONE AND LONELY THE MIND IS NEVER QUIET AND YOUR SOUL IS NEVER FULL THEN YOU MEET SOMEONE WHO SHARES YOUR INNER VIEW THEY BECOME SOMEONE VERY SPECIAL A FRIEND BUT AW BUT EVEN CLOSER WELL YOU ARE THAT FRIEND AND CONFIDANT BECAUSE YOU KNOW AS I TO BE A FRIEND YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING TO GIVE EACHOTHER ROOTS AND WINGS ROOTS,TO KNOW YOUR NEVER ALONE ROOTS ,SO YOU CAN COME BACK HOME WINGS TO FLY ABOVE THE WORLD SO CRUEL WINGS TO FIND A LIFE FREE AND REAL WELL YOU MY FRIEND HAVE GIVEN MY HEART ALL OF THESE YOU HAVE GIVEN ME ROOTS AND WINGS FOR THE LOVE OF MY LIFE KATHLEEN,MY KAT FROM YOUR POPPA BEAR!!

***** THE GARDEN ***** LIFE IS GARDEN WITH MANY PLOTS SOME OF THEM WELL PLANTED AND GREEN OTHERS ARE BROWN,DEAD AND DIEING,SAD MY LIFE,MY GARDEN HAS LONG BEEN DEVOID OF LIFE OR LIGHT,BARREN AND DEAD NO WARMTH,NO SUN,NO BEAUTY THEN YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE SENT BY GOD,BRINGING MY GARDEN TO LIFE WITH THE WARMTH OF YOUR HEART A SEED WAS PLANTED WITH TENDER CARE THAT SEED TOOK ROOT AND WITH THE SHEER WILL OF YOUR SPIRIT GROWTH BEGAN,A BLOSSUM APPEARED,LIFE SPRANG FORTH,YOUR SMILE SUSTAINED THAT LIFE THROUGH THE BEAUTY OF YOUR EYES THE GARDEN EXPLODED INTO BLOOM,BREATHTAKING WITH COLOR,LIFE AND BEAUTY,A ONCE BARREN AND COLD PLACE IS NOW FULL OF LIFE,HOPE AND PEACE MY GARDEN HAS BEEN BLESSED BY AN ANGEL A WOMAN,YOU,NOW WE CAN WALK THROUGHT THE GARDEN YOUR LOVE CREATED AND ENJOY IT AS ONE FOR IT TOOK A WOMAN,AN ANGEL TO GIVE LIFE TO MY SAD,DEAD GARDEN,THAT WOMAN IS YOU KATHLEEN MY KAT,MY LOVE THANKS TO YOU MY GARDEN IS NO LONGER DEAD,BUT FULL OF LIFE AND LOVE!! FOR YOU DESIRE MY LOVE MY LIFE!!

I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW OF AN ANGEL AMOUNG US,A BEAUTY SO RARE SO UNDISCRABLE YET IN PLAIN VIEW FOR ALL TO SEE,THAT ANGEL IN MY KATHAREEN MY KAT MY DESIRE..SHE IS A WOMAN LIKE NO OTHER,SHE ACCEPTS ME FOR ME..WITH MY BAD TEETH,BAD SKIN BAD LOOKS,BAD ATTATUDE AND FAST NEW YORK TEMPER..SHE LOVES ME,NOT SOME MOLD TO BE AJUSTED AND THEN RECAST...NO SHE LOVES ME FOR ME..SOMETHING 3 WIFES AND SEVERAL OTHER LOVERS NEVER COULD OR DID DO...SHE LOVES ME EVENTHO WE HAVE NEVER TOUCHED HANDS OR KISSED EACHOTHERS LIPS..THIS IS SOON TO BE DELT WITH AS I AM GIVING UP ALL I AM,ALL I KNOW HERE IN NYS TO MOVE TO MY ANGEL IN CALIFORNIA,SHE IS WORTH IT BACAUSE IN TRUTH HERE I AM DEAD AND LIVING IF YOU CALL IT THAT IN A COFFIN..NO WINDOWS NO LIGHT..AND MY SOUL HAS BEEN DEAD...TIL THIS ANGEL LIT IT UP WITH HER LOVING WONDERFUL BIG BEAUTIFUL HEART AND BROUGHT MY BROKEN AND DEAD HEART TO LIFE AGAIN...HOW DO YOU THANK A WOMAN AN ANGEL LIKE THAT...YOU LOVE HER MORE EACH DAY AND YOU NEVER HURT HER EVER...MY VOW TO YOU KAT MY DARLING ANGEL..I WILL DIE BEFORE I HURT YOU..BUT I WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU IF YOU WILL HAVE ME!!!