shelby's blog: "just because"

I don't know why i'm writing this honestly because you will never read it.  I see you everytime I close my eyes, hear your voice when everything is silent, and I just want to scream and cry your name everytime I open my mouth. I can still feel your arms around me. You hurt me so bad AGAIN that I had no choice but to walk away.  I'm sorry I just disappeared but if I saw you I knew I would have forgotten about my heart you ripped out yet again. I can't put myself through it anymore.  I know you were told I was back with him.  THat was a lie, that was the only way I knew you wouldn't try to come back around. I know you loved me but you were loving others too and that I cannot do anymore. I am alone and probably will be for a while.  I hope you realize that you were everything to me. I will love and think about you till the day I die. Even though I left you my heart is the one thats broken and this time, the pieces can't be put back together by you.