Mouse TDS's blog: "Just Thoughts and Stuff"

My Day

When the day starts getting weary

I think of you and smile

A secret little knowing 

When I think of you my dear

When afternoon gets restless

And I need a little something

Just to keep me going

I close my eyes and think of you

When evening falls apon me

I smile with the knowledge

That your just around the corner

And just a heartbeat away

In sleepless nights you visit

You bring with you a whisper

You ease away my worries

You calm my restless heart

An in my dreams you follow

You make my heart start racing

You tell me what I need to hear

And make me whole again

White Otter Lake

A striking young beauty

Eye's simmered like gold

A spirited creature

As the story is told

She could use a man solely

No matter the stake

Then her eye caught a hold

The man from White Otter Lake

She wanted a castle

A place to call home

So he got to it quickly

So she wouldn't roam

From day to weeks to months

Then turned to years

As the house slowly built

So did his fears

Tirelessly, he did work

A labour of love

Brought supplies with his boat

No help to speak of

No sooner was it 

That the house was complete

When another love came to her

He knew he was beat

All alone in his castle

On White Otter Lake

And in all of it's grandeur

His epitaph it did make

Some Reasons

Sunsets, flowers, birds, trees.

The warmth of the sun.

A cool summers breeze.

Smells of spring and the colours of Fall.

The chill of winter.

Hearing loons call.

Smiles of children,dogs wigging tails.

Walks in the park,

On long winding trails.

Tastes of fresh popcorn, french fries and dogs.

Heat of a fireplace.

The smell of pine logs.

I could go on and make a hugs list.

But for so many of us left here.

You'd be greatly missed.

These are some reasons that you should stay

Keep on with living

It gets better someday.

On The Streets

People stop and ask you why

But they don't care if you live or die

When your on the streets your on your own

You can't get no place if you got no home

Don't know where your going to sleep

Don't know when your going to eat

You'll sell yourself  so you survive

When winter come will you be alive

Don't know whats around the bend

You ask yourself will it ever end

When life gets to much for you to take

Wondering where you've made mistakes

Street are cold and dangerous

You have to do what you must

Cause when your on the streets your on your own

You can't get no place when you got no home

I am Hurting

I reach for you 

But your not there

I cry for you

But you cant hear

I long for you

But your not here

I go to you

But you just disappear.

I wonder if I am ever going to get over you

I'm still searching for some light some hope to hold

I get thought each day

I just don't live in it

When I lay down my head your always there 

Because your inside it

Your not next to me to hold on to me

And you just don't get it

You dont need my love like I need yours

You cant share you heart your mind your life your soul

You can't give give what I need to feel whole again

Cause you never really knew me like I thought you did

I cry out you name

But you don't listen

Cause your never here

When I need most

You live like a man

Who wants his freedom

You only love me when

You need me you just use me

I hate what your doing to me

And I wont live with it

Cause I am not going to sit by

Waiting for you to realize

That I am

The best thing

That has ever happened

In you life

Hands

My voice is silent

Though my mind shouts

My hands always write

What my heart's all about

When depression

Over-shadows my joy

My hands keep on writing

To help fill the void

When deep within me

My soul crys in pain

My hands keep on writing

To help me keep sane

I write about things

I can't seem to say

My hands keep me writing 

To show me the way

So when my voice goes silent

And my minds shouting out

It's my hands that are sharing

Shedding no doubt

Changes

The more things change

The more they stay the same

Different faces, different places

All come back to the same rat race.

Hang ups and attitudes

Different station same old tunes

Step on feeling step on toes

Where it stops no one knows.

Do old stories ever end

Do broken fences ever mend

Can you get up when your so low

When theres no light you can not grow.

I need a light so I can see ahead

See my future so I dont dread

Better odds to even the score

All I need is a little more.

Then again what difference would it make

If everything I see is fake

Who'll be here to hear my cries

Who'll be here to dry my eye's?

Helpless, hopeless, depression

My attitude is my salvation

It's my strength that will leads me on

Reaching new heights and well beyond.

This is where the change begins

You have to start deep with in

Like yourself and start a new

Contentment comes to very few

Moving On

When I close my eyes and I discover that

I am not who I thought I was

Who am I 

When i wake up and find out that all that I ever was

Was a lie

When I thought things were good

To find out now

I was fooling myself

Who did I fool then?

What do I do now?

Move on

I open my eye's and look into the mirror

To see who is staring back

I like who I see

I now know 

Where I am going

I now know

Who I am

I now like my life

I am not fooling anyone

Not even

Myself

I have

A destination

I have 

A purpose

I have

A sense of fulfillment

I encourage

Each day's arrival

With eager

Anticipation

I have

Grown as a person

I am

Embracing life

I am 

Satisfied

I am

Happy

Most importantly

I am

Proud of who I have become

Life's Journey

Every road in life has curves, bends, bumps, and hills.

Although we choose our path,

We might not acquire insight or knowledge

From the paths we have chosen.

When we travel, we want our roads to be straight,

With little or no bumps to disturb our smooth ride.

But, life offers little in the way of guarantee's.

With each bump we learn more about how strong we can become.

How weak we really are.

Each turn uncovers a beauty and the ugly realization that,

We are not in control of the roads which lay ahead.

Measure how far you have gone not by age,

But by the knowledge you have achieved during your travels.

Look back upon the roads on which you have traveled,

Not to find fault but in search for what went right on your road.

Embrace your triumph's.

Accept your defeats.

Shed your doubt and despair

Replace them with realistic goals that are attainable.

Stop reaching for the stars,

When beauty surrounds you on the road which you have chosen to travel.

Stop.

Drink in the sight's

Listen.

At times even silence makes a wondrous sound.

     Insane

All alone she stands in the rain

Hidden tears and hidden pain

She's got everything to loss and nothing to gain

Secretly she goes insane

She keeps her secrets from her friends

Their meek support they try and lend

She has no defenses so she can fend

And closer still there comes the end

All that you know is she is feeling blue

Guess there is nothing you can do

She's been hurt by many and loved by few

She's going mad you know it's true

And when the lights go out

You think you hear a shout

You'll know what it's about

She's gone mad you have no doubt

It's time now she's set free

She kept her secret see

The same she will never be

Now you'll never find the key

Now all alone she's in the rain

Feeling no pleasure feeling no pain

She had nothing left to loss to gain

Now that she's truly gone insane