yesterday I got a message on myspace from a girl who used to be friends with my daughter when she was 5 and 6 and now my daughter is the kid she makes fun of I told my daughter about it and she told me to delete it I couldn't because as a parent I felt it my right that Iwanted to defend her my response was this yes I remember you from you were 5 and 6 and you were my childs friend and from what my daughter has said you've been lessthan kind to her and to let her know I would not add her knowing she would use whatever info against her like that I'm on My space wellI'm on myspace really at my duaghters urging and so I can keep an eye on what content is on her page but I had to respond that my daughter is the same lovely child that she was than and is now was I wrong?
while I was there i made contact with a girl i knew in highschool on the alumni page but I'm not sure I have anything in common to much with my age group because I don't feel my age I am not a grandmother and Istill see myself as young but my 30th reunion is next year I in away would love to see these people I have run into a few over the years by accident but for me unlike my daughter it was painful and very lonely time should I go back.
In the last couple of years when I go shopping I have this need to buy a little black dress Its become a obsession and a need to have one why I can't understand why now I had some black dresses in my past but i wore them once because one they were cheap and i wore black because i was fat but this is different I want a good littleblack dress a classy one to wear for dates and occasions. I haven't found it yet but I always look.
another obession I have is this guy from my long and recent past i think of him often and can't seem to shake it never have his name is Micheal " pazuzu" hawkins. I loved him and was hurt deeply by him but evry so often he remains a ghost that seems to haunt me.
just random musings today that i can't seem to pop in today oh well
