MrBigBadBear's blog: "Loyalty, Compassion, Humanity."

Hmm, where to start, so many ways to.  First off I have to say this.  Happiness is coming, it's on it's way to me, finally.  I was beginning to wonder if it would ever find it's way inside.

I have feelings developing, which at one point, I questioned.  Now though, I don't need to question them anymore, I know what's happening.  I welcome it, with open arms.  It's so rare to find such a connection.

I am very much into protecting them at all costs.  It's a fierce determination unbendable by any other.  I can't help but be this way, cause if one doesn't put their all into something, what is it then?  Is it not worth it?  I only go forward and look to the day where everything comes together, like the last thread of a finely woven fabric, it takes time, yes, but in the end, it only looks to be the best.

Sometimes though, doubt enters the picture.  The whys and how comes and what ifs.  They linger, in the back, usually dormant, but will peek their ugly faces from time to time.  It is human nature.  Maybe it's a curse that we think the way we do, maybe not.  I believe it to be a protection feature.  Our own "wall" that we can use to unconsciously shield ourselves from emotional pain.  It happens, it's a part of life, doubt will always be there, but it's how we deal with it, that will ultimately change our course.

Risks... Now there's a concept.  Most animals, insects, life on this planet except our own species do not understand what a risk is, if any of them.  But we do and I would have to say most of us aren't into the biggest risks, that include either a chance of death, or death of another.  But what of risks of the heart.  Can we always close ourselves off to the maybes that come our way?  No, we can't.  If we do, then there would never be any connections between people.  Life on this planet would be boring as hell.

Now and then, something comes our way that we may be afraid of, we may shy away at the thought of it, because we don't completely understand it.  Or maybe part of it, is because it is TOO good.  Sometimes we have to steel ourselves and take that step of faith on an unseen bridge.  Sometimes, there is a hand waiting outstretched to grab ours and pull us in.  One has to be able to accept that step or hand and let their feelings and hearts guide them.  Yes, there is a risk of getting hurt, but do you truly know what will happen?  If you know the future, then more power to you, but I don't think so =)

Close your eyes, hold your breath and step on that bridge, put your hand out there to be embraced by another.  Let yourself go sometimes, in spite of the fears of what MAY happen.  At anytime, things MAY happen.  You never know if you will wake up the next day, you never know if you may have missed the chance of a lifetime.

There is one hell of a slogan out there, Just do it.  Those three words carry a lot of meaning.

P.S.  I am in the seat of life's roller coaster, though the seat beside me is empty... for now.  There will be ups and downs, there will be scary moments, there will be fun moments, but most of all, there will be the heart and what it feels.  As a man, i give my word that I will treasure and protect those feelings with all that I am and can be.  A connection like this is stronger than steel, stronger than anything imaginable.  But the other half is waiting to be connected completely.  So I wait as she slowly comes closer every day.