Don't ya just hate it when you can't shake feelings for someone that ya know doesn't return them the same way? Frigging driving me nuts. Been trying for over a year now to shake caring too much for someone and still no blasted sucess.
Even worse.....have said feelings for 2 people at same time.
It sucks being polyamourus at times. Ironically, when I'm not in a relationship, I can love or overly care for up to 4 men at the same time (so far thats the max, thank Goddess!). Yet as soon as I hook up with someone, I'm pure monogomous. The others I cared for simply drop into friendship only. Its rather bizarre I know but thats how strict I am with myself on staying loyal to who I am with in serious relationships.
I struggle to understand why the Goddess wants my life so weirded out. And of course don't it figure that writting isn't giving me my usual relief from thinking.
BLAH (lmao at least I know what to title this one now)
Have a good 4th USA'ers :)
