Luvingmom's blog: "just some thoughts"

The Path Two mothers Two infants One born to a family of believers The others existing The firt infant flourishes her path unknown The second is sickly Her path to unfold Our Lord has many paths for those he chooses to place upon this earth Some paths are long... Never seeming to have meaning Some paths are short and purposeful Yet, Meaning and Purpose may elude those around and leave us to ponder: The True Path Set Before Us We can be assured Our main path is to glorify our King Our Heavenly Father Christ We may at times have questions Never seeming to be answered At times, The answeres are merely outcomes Of the circumstances Surrounding our lives In our own humanism We overlook and are blinded to the simplist answers We Must hold true that all things do indeed Occur to keep and guide us On the path God has set for our Lives Directly or Indirectly, We shall inevitably produce Gods purpose in our insignificant lives. The one infant who seemed to have no chance Was truly able to produce a very powerful And significant testimony to Our Lord Through her ordeal She planted a seed of salvation For her Loving Parents I can see no greater gift This young child could leave her parents Thank to help them come to know The Lord as their personal Savior This young Life is proof of our purpose Her parents are being guided to fulfill theirs Because of her birth They seek the Lord and he will be their comfort Written by Tami L. Merriam In Loving Memory of Emily Elizabeth Zappa May your Uncle Frank be waiting to rock you gently in his arms.

Are changes meant to help us learn Are changes meant to help up grow or do we enact change due to what we learned and how we've grown regardless how or why it comes whatever reasons it began the time does come when change occurs sometimes needed sometimes wanted but either way it begins a new phase but in that phase what does come next will but determine More Changes and choices to be made so where I choose to make a choice I have chosen to make a change and if I chose the choice I did then learn to love the change it made is what I must learn to do

Have you ever woken to the sun and wondered where the moon had gone woken to feel all your joy and all your pain upon your face as if the rain was tumbling down to wash away all that you'd done and sat and thought and wondered why and wondered how it had all begun Are we but products of our choices or do our lives merely revolve around the circumstances cause by others is what we say and what we do truly matter in the scheme of the picture yet unseen is life and death just temporal and really but sheer memories and truly we do not exhist at all just stumbling through a destiny that has been plotted endlessly with rhyme of reason thrown but to the winds but if the winds do true control the paths we may or may not go should we float upon its gentle current or try to fight against it or just allow the winds to continue to carry us through what we call life

I spent a lifetime waiting I spent a lifetime hoping I spent a lifetime dreaming Dreaming I would feel so loved Dreaming I could know a touch so full of gentle sweet caresses Dreaming I could be one heart and beat a melody so sweet inside if even for the briefest hour if even for a precious breath if even for just one sweet kiss I cherish all we've had I long for all you've given me i cringe to think it will not last but I know that our is stolen time I know you are not mine I know that what we have is only but sweet dreams

I Long for many years to feel my soul awake I dreamed so many nights of knowing true desire I wrote down all my hopes I prayed for one true Love I sang so many songs of how my heart had felt In all these things I never thought In all these things I held no hope And then one day I took a chance And in that chance I felt your lips and in your Lips I opened up and felt a warmth I never thought nor had I hoped could be so warm to fill my soul, fulfill my dreams, make all my hopes reality and all those songs that I had sung replaced with a song you have created so deep within my being

one day I'll wake and know my life has been worth the trip I've journeyed one day I'll wake and know tomorrow is calling me to hurry hurry to forget the hurts hurry to dismiss the pain the pain thats formed me into Me the hurts that guided me to this day So when I wake in a hurried state I think I'll make tomorrow wait For who I have become in life was worth the hurts and pain

I don't know what you want from me but I am not your toy I try to be all that you want but that is not enough What have I done that you would choose to hurt me as you have I guess that when you said you cared that I was all you needed when you said you loved me wanted me it was but for a season I think that maybe in your mind the season has lasted a season too long

At times I sit and reminisce and shed a simple tear A tear for what I do not know for it was yesteryear My life is full of Love and Joy I have what most would want And yet I sit with times begone and long for who knows what Is what I have just not enough or not what I envisioned Just maybe only time will tell if what I thought and what has passed are only but my visions So here I sit and reminisce and shed my simple tears

I look outside my window and Gaze upon the bright New moon and for a brief but fleeting moment I wonder if... you wonder too... If... I do think of you while you gaze upon the moon as I do.

I know they say we have to wait till Winter ceases for this season I Love the snow but not this much I think we've had enough I Long to stand outside And feel the breath of springs sweet breezes I long to feel the Suns warm kiss upon my gentle skin I see the buds upon the trees so patiently they wait to be reborn to bloom so prould I hear the birds outside my home I see them flying high above in serch of food for thier young chicks I long for sspring and its rebirth to give me strength and life again I Long to stand outside And feel the breath of springs sweet breezes I long to feel the Suns warm kiss upon my gentle skin I long to feel it's touch again like a Lovers dear embrace