Well some of you don't know but I went through a very abusive relationship years ago. I suffered from many bruises,my nose being broke,black eyes,my body just aching in places I couldn't imagine hurting. I survived that, and yes I can say that I suvived because I am still here and I no longer have to deal with that and haven't for 10 years. But yes I still have those moments when something triggers memories. Yes tney hurt, and yes they will always be there. FOr those of you who have never had to deal with something like this you can't say you know what I am going through because you don't. For those who have been through it well I just hope that when you are reading this that you have been stron enough to get out like I did Someone like that will never change. I know this because he's still that way. At this point in my life I have become stronger than him and I control every situation. He knows that I will hang up on him if he gets out of hand when talking about our children. Even through all the damage he has done to my mind,body and soul. I have my life. ANother thing is if you are reading this and you know someone that is in an abusive relationship just understand they need help.BUt also leaving isnt as easy as you may think. I know this from personal experience. Yes there are alot of things that I went through that is not listed but thats because its too graphic and too painful. But even though I live with it I understand that I am alive, I have my boys with me and I become stronger and stronger. I pray that I will continue to be strong even when my pain gets the best of me. Well I know you are wondering what my purpose was for writing this. Well awareness for one, two to get some thoughts out of my head....Well take care and just remember to take care of those who need it. You never know ..The life you save may be your own......
