Im getting disdained at people who are self centred and fickle. Many think the world should revolve around them and their lives. I have a few friends that have nothing better to do than worry about whats going on in their life and what is affecting them. Arrogance seems to breed in people like this. After hearing all about what they know, what they have done, what they feel and what they think....sometimes they have the courtesy to ask about others and their worlds...only to relate it back to themselves at every given opportunity. This is wearing thin...and has for a very long time with me. I have seen it so much and bite my tounge (and will continue to do so unless it hurts my world....and most times i move away before it can do irreversable damage)...I give people a fair go and leave it to the powers that be to judge....but what i do is observe and learn and pray my future children never grow to have this kind of attitude. It is a repellant to be arrogant. Fickleness is seen for what it is...but no one will tell you. I myself have 'friends' that are forever talking bout themselves and their acchievements. But they have nothing and havent really contributed much to anything other than air. I shant name names...its not important. (anyone who really knows me will know what i speak of anyway...its not a new observation...jusy getting very very old) I get in contact with a friend and they 90% of the time are telling me how things are for them. What they did...who they think they impressed...what they are going to do...what happened to them...how great they are....yada yada yada. They fail to notice i dont ask them sometimes. Maybe i just felt like a light hearted discussion on the weather or price of eggs in china? Might wanted to muck about and be bubbily....not told all about the person and their lives. I know about them. Now if the person i call is genuinely distraught or needs to unload because things are getting too much to hold into themselves...im there for as long as it takes. I would never get annoyed at a peron in need of an ear and a friend. I love to feel needed and often need people like that myself. The people i have that relationship with...people that call out to me cause they need a friend...i call them my true friends of substance. They are inveribly there for me if i feel a little down and need to chat. Not all are but most are. I do have friends that unload on me but when i need to unload on them...theyre too busy or they have enough stress themselves to be there for me. Im just not worth it then. Its all too much for them. They have very short memories. Or they are ok jack...so please stop raining on their parade. UUUGGHHHH...*shakes head* Its a shame. Next thing they realise is they get contacted a little less. Then they reach out and start contacting the people that backed away....only to stupidly start on about themselves once again. Sad...so very sad and it stunts their spiritual growth! You cant become all wordly and understanding if you are stuck in a bubble of your own little world. Forget Self!!!!!!! FORGET SELF!!!!! If thats the only 2 words my future kids remember me saying i will be happy. FORGET SELF! Its amazing how wonderful the world can seem once that is acchieved.
It really all falls back to the fact that courtesy, manners, generosity and kindness are dwindling in some people and being replaced with aloofness, self importance, arrogance (even ignorance) and dishonesty. Yes i am on a soap box. I have had a gutfull and just cant do a damn thing about it. Im glad i care about people...i'm glad i can get out of myself to be reached and liked and even loved. It takes no effort...just understanding and respect. Luckily...i have found many people who are the same....selfless and lovable.
Thankyou to those people whom are always there for me....know i am always there for you. Arrogance .... its such a turn off.
