As the saying goes, if I did not have bad lucky I'd have no luck at all.
A week before Christmas and all was well. I was almost out of debt and closer to moving on up.
Then 4 days before Christmas, my world comes a crashing. Not one, not two, three traffic tickets. All my fault, the begining of my bad luck.
I could no long drive, due to so BS law I knew nothing about. Could not drive to see my family for the holiday, I could not drive at all. No real friends at all, and my only family in town had far worse problems then I.
For her husband had become sick and the day after Christmas was take to the hospital and in the ICU. Thankful he was released yesterday, but not in the clear.
My family has a curse, I am not sure why. My mother killed herself 10 years ago. Booze and anti-depressents, not a great combo.
So, as the new year comes, I do nothing but work for a losy $7.75 and hour. I am the only one at work know who is blesed to work the midnights at the hotel. So, i do not get a day off.
I did have New Years Eve off, but had no one to spend it with.
Then came my close friend from college wedding 3 hours away. Still I could not drive, but I did not care, I was in the wedding and had to go.
So happy for him, his bride was great indeed. Someday, I could be as lucky, but bad luck is all I have.
Lonely I am. The last of my college friends to be single. Bad lucky in deed. One more wedding to go, alone I will go. Cry myself to sleep, in hope of a change of luck.
32 I will be this year, the oldest of them all. Yet, nothing to show, but a grind and a joke when they are around. Tears when they are not.
An empty shell of a man, I may have once been. Who would want to marry me? A man, in genes I may be, but not much more. A hopeless romantic, with no one to care. Hopeless, so true.
Not sure want to do, my life with out a clue. I do know until I happy happy with me, i'll never be happy with you.
So here I am, alone at work. A tear in my eye, with no one to dry. Wishing for a hug, I'll never have.
If I did not have bad luck, I'd hve none at all.
-Jeremy
