crazybabygal's blog: "just my blog hehehehe"

I've Learned you told me to let it happen you said don't be afraid i told you i'd try my best and i said that i was scared... to let someone hold my hand to let someone love me to let someone into the dark for me to fall in love for me to put trust in you for me to do this for me you told me to let it happen you said don't be afraid i told you i'd try my best and i have accomplished some things... i can open my heart to love i can get pass the inertia i can depend on you to make me happy i can show the skeletons in my closet i can believe that you still love me i can turn the light on in the dark you taught me to let it happen you taught me to not be afraid i've learned how to try my best and i've learned that it was all worth it

How I'm Feeling??? i'm high and then low my friends come and i go how do they keep dealing? if they only knew how i was feeling happy to sad excited to mad it could be just days or months of this faze sometimes i love with all my heart other times, from your love, i dart level grounded to confused appreciated to misused when will this stop? my brain's ready to pop! i jump on a fast track to keep myself from being abstract restless to overly tired dragging on to completely wired i live up and down soaring high then dropping to the ground never know if it's that time that my whole being worships my mind always going to stuck in bed breathing deep to not breathing, dead sorry for you and sorry for me but take a look at what i see

To Yearn The Nightmare When the nightmare comes to haunt me Pulls back the honest eyes Believe me bearing with brutality Yet obliging to the lies Yearn the yearn so numbing Burn it through your soul Brand it so denying Defying horizons fold And scour on your memory All the untruths left to be told Nightmare, craving nightmare Take the dare to bare the cold Don't stare me in the eyes If you're afraid to see into my soul Don't step into forever If you don't know the way to go To take you to your nightmare Bliss intrepid bliss Moments held in rapture His kiss upon your lips Lost within this darkness Fearless enough to be aghast When realization captures virtue And frees the love at last So every second spent apart And every moment lost in dreaming Reminds me to remember The nightmare never loses meaning

Fairytale Nightmare I've got my hair caught in the stars, flirting with the moon, drinking the clouds, this is contentment Im searching for a glue thats strong enouth to stick you to my side, my siamese fantasy your my itch tonight I've got the signs of age, im a cigarette stainded mess, a cigarette stained princess, royalty never tasted so bitter a gothic thought, a gothic vision, smell the roses inside this prison slowly lulled and slowly falling hush now hear my prince is calling can you feel the spiders crawling?

Sleep Paralysis I glance through the mirror on a moonless night. I see my reflection glare on this moonless night. The shadows consume my face and fear of the dark. Oh, I wish I had a light. A smoldering cigarette. I distract myself with a smoke. Light me up, little zippo, I gotta have a smoke. There's witches in the walls and clowns eating my face have never been a joke. My room is a barren hole. Get me to a hotel. My bed provides no comfort. I'm going to a hotel. There the lightbulbs never go out, halogen certainty releases me from my hell. Under my blanket I hide my face. The monsters can't get me if I have no face. That's the only reassurance I can get while I'm stuck in this haunted place. No one has died here. No, there aren't any angels. I don't believe in the devil, and there aren't any angels. Faithless and frozen, I succumb to the supernatural, waiting for the sounds of morning churchbells. I won't be able to move, but my bed will shake. There is no earthquake, but my bed will shake. That old hag visits me tonight. Sure, I know Queen Mab. I don't think I'm asleep, but I sure hope I'm not awake.

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Sleep Blissful darkness, Claim my soul, Carry me in your arms, Take away my pain, Take away my wearyness, Take me away, Blissful darkness, Take pity on me, Don't leave me here, Light is coming, I want freedom, Freedom from this world, From the feelings, From everything. Blissful darkness, Purify me, Recharge me, Pick me clean. Blissful darkness, Grant me sleep, Allow me rest, Bestow upon me slumber. I want to dream, I wish for your touch. Blissful darkness, How you fade in the morn. Before you leave... Please... just... take... me... to need sleep........

What have I become? I was once innocent and I had fun Those times seem like a finger snap Quick, fast, and gone away like a nap But life afterward isn't easy Harder than I thought I'll be Depressions after depressions I wish these were just fictions Dealing with people that dislike me everyday Feeling like I was born to bleed this way My mind filled with full of doubts I lay down to find my way outs Side of me always lead me to suicides Right or left? Or my both Sides? All I want in my life is freedom and peace But I never seem to get or released Could someone please help me? I just want to see-- See the world of fun and fantasy Like I used to - like I used to be

Life Lesson Like a child released from punishment into beckoning rays of weekend sun I am tied no more to any shame since over my anguish I’ve finally won. Hidden away in the darkened corners no redemption seemed sure to come my way so I remained locked within such despair believing I had nothing more to say. But from smoking ashes of buried rage cooled by many rains of sorrowful tears an archangel rises in much glory to slay my own demons with shield and spear. Like an explorer sailing global seas under countless stars that direct the course there are no obstacles to hinder me since my will has become a striving force. Hidden away in the darkened corners believing I had nothing more to say. It is strange how one can instantly change when the price of growth seems expensive to pay

new begining I choke on tears of pain Memories once filled with joy and happiness Slowly drive me insane. I’ve done a lot of thinking It’s brought my me close to snapping, And I feel just like I’m sinking. There’s no one to stand beside me I’ve been abandoned by the one I love I guess not even love is free. However in life I’m trying, Despite my thoughts of suicide, And endless nights of crying. My tears have burned away, And now I taste the ashes, The bitter ashes of yesterday. The taste is gone in seconds, But remains in memory. As my new life beckons Blindly leaping into new life I hope against hope its self. That this one holds less strife