jaded 4 ever's blog: "just me"

A lifetime of sharing, a world is left unshared A thousand comforting touches Just to show that you cared Wasted moments, wasted time One lifetime, this lifetime To live in one moment, to remain in a thought To caress in the silence in which it was caught All the things we could say All the things we could do If the world was just me and you And we could have it all our way Decisions and choices are all that we have As we stumble and fall along this life's path So into my treasure trove, into Pandora's box Forever to be sealed, forever held by locks Until those mad mad moonlit nights When thought and reason do take flight And dreams and hopes come alive Old ghosts and memories are revived. kenny this is us and what we have been threw only u and i can change this

Facing myself in sobriety finding that quiet place within the place where there's only the naked me no protection and no artistry the insanity is complete the emptiness of this routine in this cold territory There's a need to make it through there is strength to see the truth If only these moments were brief if only someone special were here Thy Will be done... Maybe I just had it wrong - all the things I used to want I must let go, I must be strong this is real life, this is my life That special love can never be nobody loves that way it's only in a movie scene that love's forever more It's trust, compatibility that couples should respect maybe it's mere consideration that relationships reflect

I have happily waited for you time after time, thinking someday you would be mine. to feel your loving embrassy. watch you sleep seeing all the lil smiles you make.Feelin you close and never wanting to let go. but somehow i always come in last, just a friend that you can count on in your time of need. when i wanted to love you in every way take the good & the bad face this life complete. for you & for me..But i have to take 2 steps back for you have someone recurring from ur past.All that goes threw my mind is to runaway fast. to a place where you cannot hurt me anymore...shut & lock the doors on love. hearing my screams i have had enough!!!!!!!!

i have had to many empty promises and lies to hear not even one more. im not a hater. just no gaming, friends are great to have and hell lets all be honest with one another i have more respect for someone who says the truth. than i do with the ones who want to play a game.... hmm could be why im single huh? try the game with me and guess what i wil show what a bitch i can be...

well today i find out if the surgery i had done last week got rid of all the cancer...if so watch out never assume what i might say or do next lol time to life to the fullest i have already over come to many obstcales in this world now i just want 2 enjoy and see all there is.getting to know new people helps so thanxs for all the love