Mistress Widow's blog: "Just me ranting a bit"

Goodness, ok I know I have been complaining that I have been on bed rest because I got told on by two 13 year olds. Well I had my tubes tied on the 17th of this month. I had to do some last minute running around during the week.....not my smartest move after getting something like that done. So I guess I'm not healing fast enough and I feel like the Hulk is punching me in the guts. So I got sent to bed....only to go to the bathroom and back, otherwise I get yelled at.
Here is the kicker, before I got them tied I had to have three 3 "Are you sure" doctor visits, and explain why I want to do this. (I have no kids) Even as they were putting in the IV my obgyn asked if I was sure.

I get it, I'm "too young" I'm "Not sure" blah blah blah.....I have had to raise four boys baby sit for FREE (not of my own will or want) kids from new babies to teens. I told my mom when my 3rd brother was born, I was never having kids.

Well kinda changed my mind, I would rather adopt than have my own....you see mental disorders run ramped in my family, I my self have bipolar and depression....(The bipolar is just the mood swings from happy, sad, mad and repeat) 
What I had to deal with growing up with these "problems" was not fun, plus the meds....don't get me started on stupid doctors and insurance companies.... I would NEVER wish that on my worst enemy. and I know for a fact I would not be able to watch my child go through what I had to. It would KILL me to have to break down my kids door and shove my hand down their mouth to get any pills they have tried to swallow to try and kill themselves. I would NOT be able to handle it.

So with much thought, and LOTS of support from some of my family, I had my tubes tied. I told my mom and aunt, why would I want to bring another child into this world when there are so many without parents?
When the time comes, I will adopt. I know I want a boy and maybe a girl.
I have been told, I was stupid for getting it done, that no guy in his right mind would want me because he can't have his own kids and other crap.

My response, if the man I choose to marry loves me, and understands me, then he will have no problem with it.

I'm sorry, but I hear all this stuff about abortion and "It's our bodies! Our decision!" Well I think that applies with getting your tubes tied before you even have kids. I'm 26 in the eyes of the world I am an ADULT, not a child. I really don't think it's such a big deal. but to everyone else it is. Don't know why, they didn't do it, I did.

You are entitled to your opinion, and so am I.

Just like tattoos, I didn't do it hoping for your approval, I did it for myself. My body, My rules.

The more you know!

Ok this kinda has to do with the first post,

My last ex (who cheated on me) and I were going to exchange Christmas gifts in Jan. when he had time off.

Well he got me some Batman movies (The pack where it has all of the classics) Well since I called him my Batman, and he called me his Catwoman, I had a broken heart necklace (for me) and keychain (for him) that had Batman on one side and Catwoman on the other. When you put the necklace and keychain together it became a heart. It was hand made and expencive.

Well now I'm kinda stuck with that gift, I told my Best friend, who is a girl, that she is truly my Batman because she is always watching out for me, we fight and make up, but we love eachother, not like that! Like sisters! Pervs LOL 

So I told her I am calling her my Pink Knight, she refuses to be called Dark Knight because pink is sooooo much better (Her words not mine)

So I think I might spray paint the Batman keychain pink and give it to her.

It's kinda funny when the only male that has never let me down was my bunny. Well my brother's dog Kimbo, and my dad's dog. But the only male that was truley mine and held my heart and he held mine was a bunny that I saved and raised.

But since he has passed, I have another male that has never left my side. My Philmore, my turtle pillowpet. I know it's corny and dumb. but he is the guy for me! LOL My only cuddle buddy I need. I'll post a pic of the turtle who stole my heart later.

Thanks for reading my drama!!!

I really don't understand why people cheat.

I myself have been cheated on three times by three different boyfriends.

1st bf, didn't last long, kinda was an ass

2nd bf, lasted for a while (years) was mentaily abusive, was an ok guy with my family, good heart, just raised buy a hateful person.

3rd bf, We weren't bf/gf but we have known eachother for awhile, I flew out there to spend time with him, LOVED his family. He kept telling me he loved me, that he was going to marry me blah blah blah. I brushed it off I really didn't want a long distance relationship. but he insisted we start saying we were bf and gf. Had a bad feeling, a friend of mine set up an account.....you see where I am going with this. Sent pictures that he shouldn't to a girl he just met. Even after telling her he had a gf.

I can't lie, I loved the last one, thought he was THE ONE, but nope.

I know I have "issues" and also I am a big girl, but I won't let anyone treat me like that. I know I'm not the most beautiful girl around. But I have standers too. He knew about the first two and what they did, and to do that? Well yea. I now know what real heartbreak is. He quickly moved on, so I was feed sweet lies. Too good to be true.

But hey, they say stuff comes in threes right? well hopefully I will find someone who is loyal, doesn't lie, and actually loves me.

BAH! ok enough with my sob story. Just had to rant for a bit.

PS the jerk won't even give me my favorite socks back! I'm mostly upset about that!