I have to look, again, for another job, because, besically, I'm too STUPID to do simple tasks at this one....
They took me off the job I was hired to do, and stuck me in with the fucking temps, unloading fucking trucks...
I'm too STUPID in everything I try to work at... I fail in EVERYTHING I do....
I'm so incredibly sad and depressed... and, its never been anything new to me
I'll never be the man I want to be... or who I should have been
I hate the path my life takes me!!!!!!
I want to just end it all... Whats truly sad is that thought, that feeling, never leaves me
Oh oh ohhhh, sob story Jer..... cry for me Jer... waaah waaaah.... Yeah, you dont know what its like... what I deal with, in my mind, every single day, every single hour.... the loneliness, the hopelessness, the overbearing feeling of constantly failing and rarely ever succeeding...
I'm so incredibly tired of it all!!!! I want to scream my emotions and soul right out of this god forsaken body and just leave forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And, I DONT want consoling words or anything of the sort... It does nothing more than annoy me, because soothing words do NOT help a hopeless soul
You know what I need? What I've needed for years and years....? A hug... Not an online hug, not a hug from a family member, not a hug from a friend......
A long, loving hug from someone who loved me truly, for who I was...
well, I dont have one, I'm still alone... I'll always be.
